>>76357768
You being 45 and still being here is not an argument, because i'm 32 and i'm still here aswell. The problem is is that I was once in your shoes. When i was 23 I met a 19 year old girl and she became my gf, I had her for 6 years but i was into blackpill back then (2015) and I didn't have starting a family in my mind. She ended up cheating on me 5 years into the relationship and i thought she was innocent when she was 19 but i found a diary talking about her ex boyfriends and she had more than 10 bodies at 19. Then i was 27 and i found a new gf. The type of gf that would kill for you, guess what tho? She wasn't a virgin either and i found out she was talking to her ex bf and she was monkey branching. I dumped her and she still stalks me 3 years later.
Then i found a virgin 29 year old girl, i was stupid enough to take her virginity and then i broke up with her because she was mid.
I don't wanna blogpost but my point is: Be content with your situation. God didn't want me to be in those relationships, because if he wanted to there would be a good ending to all of these, yes i'm pro-family but at the end of the day i'm all about God's plan and you didn't mention him in your post, so whether you have a woman or not it doesn't matter if you don't have God with you, you will never feel fullfilled. Seek Jesus