>>7715492
>I'm sure it's just me copeing, but I interpret my situation as God telling me that I have to go all in on art.
This is pretty much where I am too. I've been working in jobs everyone has told me are safe bets like the trades and the military since I was 19. I'm 25 now. I've just been trying to make enough money to live comfortably, but there's a problem with that mindset. People can smell when you don't actually give a shit about work, and nobody really offers you any opportunity to move upward in your career when they can tell, and when you don't move up and just plateau you end up falling behind, getting looked down upon by your coworkers, and possibly even laid off. Maybe if I was more of a social butterfly but it feels like to me your options for career progression are either actually be good at what you do, or be a brown noser. I'm autistic though and never actually had interest in the jobs I've done so I've continued to be outcompeted by my coworkers in every job I've had and couldn't be bothered.
I got burned pretty bad recently at my job. There was a lot of panic and stress over it for a few days, but after my anxiety started to wind back down I realized that if I keep going through life with this cynical bare minimum attitude I have I'm not ever going to actually succeed anywhere. You HAVE to be competitive to obtain opportunities in this economy, but you also have to actually care about what you're doing to be competitive. The only thing I actually care about improving or have any work ethic about is drawing, so I'm basically locked in if I actually following this belief.
I still got another year stuck in the military, but I've decided I'm just going to dive in and use my GI bill for art school once I'm done. I know the art industry is shit and known for taking advantage of the people but I think that's just the job market in totality these days. At least in the art industry I can actually at least attempt an honest shot at excelling.