it's the worst thing that can happen to a man and I can't fucking talk to anyone in my life about it. I was on holiday in Ibiza 2 months ago and it was fucking boiling hot I was sweating like a pig, so I slept fully nude in the hotel and some sort of venomous black widow spider bit me on my penis. I thought nothing of it at first but within hours I got the worst stinging pain in my life, my penis was purple and swollen. I started throwing up it felt like my penis was on fire. By the time I got to the emergency room I was told it was too late. My dick is currently pitch black and shrivelled. Doctors can't do shit so for the past few weeks it's just been a game of waiting for the penis to fall off by itself and from there they can do surgery.

i am in so much fucking pain and have been severely depressed beyond belief and don't know what to do with myself. i am a virgin and i don't know how girls are going to react when i they see that i have no penis. My manhood is gone forever.

How do i stop spamming blackpill on 4chan 24/7.
Its literaly my reason to keep going is demoralizing others, trying to shame them or rage bait them.

>be me
>three days ago
>driving home from Boston
>car fucking dies in middle of highway
>won't start
>miss work as a result
>wait five hours in the middle of the night for tow truck
>spend $600 fixing the starter
>find out the engine is damaged beyond repair, meaning $600 spent for nothing
>still need car for work
>take out $10,000 loan for new car
>charged $500 a month to pay it back
>I can afford it, but only barely
>can't drive new car until Monday anyway
>still need car tonight for work
>sister lends car at last moment
>very thankful
>drive really really carefully the whole night
>few miles from home
>a fucking retarded deer jumps in front of the car like a moron
>zero possibility to avoid it
>collision.exe
>two cars damaged in one fucking week
>no autobody shop is open today
>go down deck stairs to take picture of damage for insurance company
>get stung by a motherfucking hornet on the way down

All over the past 60 hours.

Give me one goddamn reason I shouldn't just kill myself now