i just turned 37. i work, i come home and sit on my phone, wasting my life knowing i could be coming home to a kid and raising them. my life is empty and substanceless.

i look about 10 years younger and so ive always dated younger girls and im into alternative music scenes where the girls are always mentally ill, so all my gfs have been BPD and bipolar goth and punk girls who are not mother material. yeah there were a couple execptions, 2 out of the 3 girls who i could have had a future with werent White and i just want a kid who has the same ancestry as me.

i just got out of a 10 month relationship with a girl who promised me things like marriage and kids but quickly turned into an unhinged BPD who cant even control her own emotions and wouldnt be suitable as a mother or even a long term girlfriend.

the girls ive gone on dates since have all been fat leftists and stoners not fit to have children. i think my age eliminates a lot of younger girls on dating apps, the oldest woman ive dated was 27 and that was a decade ago. i talk to girls on snapchat in the 19-21 range, who i thought maybe i can knock up irresponsibly as many young girls on there seem to have kids really young, but they are just as mentally unstable and dont want ever want anything serious if i can even get one to go through meeting up.

it seems hopeless now, the ugliest most vile people are reproducing yet im single and childless and blew the few opportunities i had in the past. i dont know how to proceed, i actually found myself trying to hit up a BPD girl from 6 years ago who was obsessed with me and tried to ruin my life several times, surely someone that insane would have my kid, but her mom is literally a nigger fucker and her half brother is a half nigger and my kid would grow up in a multiracial environment and be encouraged to race mix. i dont know what to do. and dating apps are rigged, i got 2 matches a day then after a week it deprioritized me even when i paid for the premium.

i just turned 37 and realized in the last couple years i really want a family. my last gf of 10 months promised me these things only to end up being an explosive BPD who cant control her own emotions. i only attract mentally ill women. the only other women who really wanted to get married and have kids were brown and i want White kids.

i dont get it. i think its because i look 10 years younger and dress alternative, but even trying to look more normal i cant pull it off and everyone assumes im leftist. most consider me to be above average in appearance but im naturally scrawny so ill never be some muscle bound trad guy and the girls that like the niche im filling are just mentally ill. all my girlfriends have been bipolar or bpd and 10+ years younger and i just cant attract a normal girl. especially since being single the last few months, its been all fat leftists.

before anyone says "find God" or whatever I have embraced christianity over the last couple years especially after my dad died and while it helps me look out for the bad women it doesnt bring me good women either, im not into normie church girls but more so theyre not into me, i would absolutely marry one if i could.

wtf do i do? if i dont breed by 40 i have zero reason to continue doing anything my life is completely substanceless now, no point in doing anything. i see the most vile people with kids and it just blows my mind what am i doing wrong?

i just turned 37 and realized in the last couple years i really want a family. my last gf of 10 months promised me these things only to end up being an explosive BPD who cant control her own emotions. i only attract mentally ill women. the only other women who really wanted to get married and have kids were brown and i want White kids.

i dont get it. i think its because i look 10 years younger and dress alternative, but even trying to look more normal i cant pull it off and everyone assumes im leftist. most consider me to be above average in appearance but im naturally scrawny so ill never be some muscle bound trad guy and the girls that like the niche im filling are just mentally ill. all my girlfriends have been bipolar or bpd and 10+ years younger and i just cant attract a normal girl. especially since being single the last few months, its been all fat leftists.

before anyone says "find God" or whatever I have embraced christianity over the last couple years especially after my dad died and while it helps me look out for the bad women it doesnt bring me good women either, im not into normie church girls but more so theyre not into me, i would absolutely marry one if i could.

wtf do i do? if i dont breed by 40 i have zero reason to continue doing anything my life is completely substanceless now, no point in doing anything. i see the most vile people with kids and it just blows my mind what am i doing wrong?