>>40908936
>being aspd is lonely.
I'm sadly not super familiar with ASPD, and rarely talked to people with it. How does it manifest for you? Though, at the same time, I guess I can't give a satisfying answer given my ignorance. But I at least wanna try to understand your circumstances better. You said your therapist gave up, could it be they were simply not a good fit? Or what was the reason?
>i skinwalk their hobbies and interests to feign eccentricity.
The question is, do you feel fulfillment from mirroring people? Would you see any value in making aspects of others a permanent fixture of yourself? Because even I have oftentimes done that, and quirks of others have stuck with me for longer than the people I inherited them from.
>but i push everyone away when they want me to be there for them
How does it feel moment to moment? Do you feel overwhelmed by it?
>the people who made me this way will never pay for their crimes.
It is shitty, and I often mourn the lack of comeuppance in the world.. my cope is to try and do what little I can to mend. All we can do is try to find comfort in what we can control.
>>40910710
Congratulations, Anon! Humans are persistence hunters after all, and you provided a prime example of what is meant by that.
>>40911160
What are your circumstances like, Anon? It sounds like we talked before?
>>40915244
I'm alright Anon, sweet of you to ask.. do you need any help with engaging with your friend?
>>40915292
Happy for you, Anon! Make sure to treat yourself to something for your victories from time to time, you earned it.

>>40811072
>>40811088
You two are too kind.. I love doing what I do for this board.
>>40800260
>if any autismo depression sig anons want to chat & try to help each other later on discord or here i might be up for it. i
>think feeling like no one knows me and nothing i do matters is contributing a lot to making me feel stuck
Oh, have you given the unofficial server a shot? I haven't been there in ages but I know a good couple of peeps that used to go there that would surely love company.
>>40803850
>im just ao tired of all things goign agianst me and me
>not being allowed to enjoy good things, having to look behind my bakc constantly
>IM TIRED! of it all. I just wanna calm down
That sounds extremely rough, Anon. If you want we can try and think of things you can try to change about your life if you can concretely name things about it you wish to change.
I am incredibly happy you posted. I want you to feel welcome here, this general exists for people like you, and I understand you are tired and upset. That's okay. Take your time, we are here for you.
>>40811556
Happy to hear, Anon! Do you feel like you lack veggie recipes you would enjoy? If so we can try make suggestions if you describe meals that fit your palate.

Found a pic of Malina fanart where she is smiling for once. I really liked the idea and had to share.
>>40715627
Hey anon, I know you deleted this message but I would really like to respond to it. Feel free to ignore responses to whatever made you remove the post.

>Or more... You're always around, siganon.
I try to be thrice a week at least, yeah!
>'s pic is so relatable, except... no treats.
Have you tried that trick?
Also, I am glad you got out of that relationship. Nonetheless, especially now I think it is important to not completely self isolate. If for now that means just this general, so be it. But please, have someone to check up on you. It's a safety measure.
As for your flashback advice: thank you, it was quite reassuring, since my normal approach is to gently reaffirm them they are in the present as I try to comfort/ground them.
>>40717608
>>40717638
>The NextDNS experiment is working!
Hell yes, I am happy to hear it worked well for you! I do wish you nothing but the best in your other pursuits, we're always there to cheer you on and try to support you best we can.
>I decided that the next big thing to do is a "definitive plan" against anxiety, detailing step by step all the techniques and concepts I learned. I really want to end this cycle forever and not need to go to therapy anymore.
This sounds super intriguing by the way, if there is something you feel might be useful for others, do share!
>>40723019
Definitely gonna unboysmell myself after the next few posts for this exact reason