>>515490842
It's because I'm highly "communitarian" or something in my psyche.
I care mostly about "belonging to a group harmoniously" basically.

I've stifled myself from personal success to try to work towards what I felt like at the time was group-building time and time again here.
But all those efforts were totally wasted.
Every single time was just taken as an opportunity by someone else to exploit and take as much as their hand could grab.

I've gained nothing by not being as selfish as possible here. You're correct about this place being great if you're into hyper-individualist hyper-competitiveness.

However I feel like if I were to adopt such a mentality myself it'd be losing myself which I don't want to do.

I'd rather die knowing that I'm enmeshed in a poor community of people who really are a community with each other, than with a million dollars and the knowledge that I was the fastest gunslinger.

Are we talking about Nigeria?

>>149478777
Butch Hartman wants to CURE autism! YOU SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO DO THAT NOOOOOO!