>>82313864
>Even if you worked there were no guarantees.
True but due to mental illness I constantly have to cross check future and past event's with a idealized what if-lense, leading me to this analysis

>Healthcare costs from sudden illnesses bankrupt hard workers all the time
as a Eurocuck it's even worse as this could not even have been a factor

>You can start working now without regret.
no now I live in constant regret that I working below my capacity and I never fulfill my capabilities
there is only cope, avoidance and living with the mistakes left (until I make it)
if not, I will die with my mistakes

Day3 waiting on G80SD shipment - the plot thickens edition