>>520847287
I think it's simple. No one loved them, not even themselves. Although you ignore it because you're "being yourself," being yourself doesn't require acting.
Also, amyl nitrate. The drug that when inhaled makes you want to get fucked in the ass.
Drugs fuck with perception, we've never really had a decent way to "engineer" drugs until relatively recently. Now we can provide everyone synthetic meth and ssri's