I have a general dislike of women, and the idea of getting close to women is freaky and makes me feel vulnerable. They seem like they'll bully me or use whatever I tell them as a weapon. They love to socialize and will tell everyone your deepest secrets. They will show disgust if you show them any weakness or share with them your vulnerabilities. This itself could end the relationship. This means you have to wear a mask around women and can't be genuine with them. I know not all women are like this, but it seems like the majority of them are. I am 25 years old, and although I've had hot girls crush on me in high school, I've never had a girlfriend.

I grew up with my adoptive father and my grandma. There was rage in the household every day from my grandma. I will never forget the pitch of her voice changing as the rage built up in her. She would also hit my dad. I was always terrified of her. She didn't respect my privacy or any boundaries and told me I had no right to myself or my room. Whenever I would take action against her bullshit, she would always flip the script and try to paint herself as the victim. She was a cunt. She made me feel ashamed for what was just normal child retaliation against her actions. My dad, on the other hand, was very loving and caring and had shown respect towards me.

I remember having a female friend in fifth grade and randomly getting pissed off at her and telling her to take her shirt off once, but not for sexual reasons, but because I knew this would make her feel bad. I imagined she was giving me the middle finger. She was my friend, and we had some cute interactions together. I got angry at her for no reason. I also remember lightly squeezing one of my pet hedgehogs when I was 18 when I thought he was a girl. It was a sick act, even though I didn't permanently harm him. He ended up being my favorite hedgehog from the two I had. I feel a lot of guilt and shame from these acts.

After more reading, it looks like the fear of abandonment is pretty pervasive and extreme in BPD, to the point people with BPD will often abandon someone else to avoid risking being abandoned themselves. Although, fear of abandonment is an optional criterion in the DSM-5 for diagnosis. What is life like for men with BPD?

I receive NEETbux, around $1250 a month including food money, but I live with my dad and I'm carless. Being carless actually gives me the most insecurity. My dad has repeatedly told me it would be a financially bad decision for me to get a car. He is capable of driving me to the gym whenever I need to go, and he is capable of driving me to work whenever I need to go with him. The thing is, I will at least be stuck like this for several years to come, essentially living off of the small amount of NEETbux with my dad with no real future prospects.

I do have a disability that keeps me from being able to handle a normal 9 to 5 or A time to B time job, but that's for another thread.

The thing I am most insecure about is being carless. I could get a driver license, but I would still be carless. I have having been born into a mentally-ill (aside from my dad) poor family with no generational wealth. Even if I were to achieve 7 to 8/10 looks at 5'11 at 25 or 16, which I find realistic, since I believe I have decent facial genetics, including hunter eyes, and I am super jacked, having started lifting in 2013 and been taking steroids for the past 11 months. I just need to lose around 50 or 60 more pounds of fat.

I I were a 7 to 8/10 chad-lite, I still wouldn't be able to drive myself to my own dates. I don't think I'd have my dad do it out of embarrassment, and that would really highlight my shame and kill my self esteem. Having the girl pick me up would also be a bit embarrassing and shameful. My self esteem wouldn't exactly be high, and I would be more socially awkward from that moment.

How fucked am I?

>>81875129
women exclusively give me the ick look for 1.2 seconds

finding a bf is so hard as a sub2 fembot

I started a previous thread about being a mentalcel and self-improving in various aspects in life, most importantly looks and wealth, and going with getting a loser girlfriend. The future goal with this loser girlfriend would be to reproduce with her and have her stay loyal / married to you for at least enough years for all the kids you would have with her to reach adulthood. I mentioned to make sure she's not too crazy or antisocial / dangerous or unintelligent or mentally incompatible with you. The idea would be to find a loser girl, like a druggie, who is essentially poor and stuck in life, essentially a broken girl, and rescue her from that life and essentially fix her up to an acceptable level. She would theoretically become very attached to you through this process and be impressed with your level of success and hopefully good looks as well.

There's a major problem with this. Imagine marrying a woman and thinking to yourself "She's such a trashy girl. She's unintelligent, uneducated, unskilled, and lacking any sophistication." Fucking hell. Brutal for you to come to the conclusion that such a woman is the best you could get. Women unintentionally create this situation themselves with hypergamy, but if you marry such a woman, you will have these thoughts at the back of your head. Ideally, she would be your equal, but getting your equal or better would purely be up to luck and statistically unlikely. You would probably be waiting forever and never end up marrying and reproducing, especially if it took you until 30 to self improve to a decent point and learn to live with your mental illness.

Chad doesn't have it as easy as you think he does. The amount of women into casual sex is a fraction of the amount of men into casual sex. Being chad is almost a prerequisite for being successful in the world of casual sex. Chad is almost exclusively going to be banging 4 to 6/10 beckies, as stacies are going to be giving him a bit of a challenge, since women are still hypergamous. It's not just looks that matter: you could be a 9/10 chad and give an 8/10 stacy the ick with your social autism.

Top 1%ers are going to have the easiest time with women, period. Sure, women aren't going to legitimately be sexually attracted to you if you're ugly, but being rich will essentially let you have any woman you want. You could easily marry and reproduce with a 10/10. Throughout history, the men with the most beautiful women were the richest.

Women have an unusually high monetary value attached to their bodies, and it's seemingly increased very drastically in the past 6 years. In 2019, an 8/10 escort in her early or mid 20s would likely charge $400 or $500 for one hour of sex. In 2025, that same escort would likely charge $2000 for one hour of sex. Meanwhile, a very obese 2/10 escort in her late 30s can get away with charging $600 for one hour of sex.

It's only a matter of time before stacy discovers the unusually high monetary value of her body. If you're chad, but you're low income, why would stacy put up with your broke ass? She could easily find a wealthy man, at least a top 5%er. Compared to men, women seemingly value money way more than sex.

i feel like neets get a bad rep, we just dont enjoy to spend time the same way other people do, we dont need work to feel productive. Im one of the nicest people but no one will give me a chance to even be my friend because they all have a prejudice against me, I get that hanging out would be on their terms because of time, but its not fair to judge someone for being a neet

>>508561171
Don't look directly into his eyes, but keep an eye on the nigger. Stay armed and try to keep your distance. I'm a bit of an empathetic guy, so I also wouldn't want to just leave in case the drugged-out nigger starts hurting other people. Also, unless you're a retarded drugged-out nigger, eye contact should only be intimidating if it's maintained more than 90% of the time.