got some takeout, didn't want the wagies to have too much of a rest. that and the sunshine i got on the way there boosted my mood. i'm not having a great day, ngl, bored and lonely still, even with my mom and dog here. mom wants me to go to the pool with her later, might do that, might just nap. trying to remember the state i was in this time last year, down a lot of money, smoking a lot of pot, in bad shape, how far i've come since then. it helps a little, but nothing fixes this longing i have for love, which wasn't here last year, the pot does dull that, and i won't lie i've been thinking about that recently but i want to stay strong and healthy. trying to remember it's a 3-day weekend, it's a rough patch in love, that things will get better soon, but today which started out nicely is turning sour for me. oh well. ups and downs in markets and life. gonna try to make some more cardio progress tonight, i've come very far in that too and i think i have it in me to keep going. just blogging through the doldrums. hope everyone is well, futures will open soon and we'll get some line wiggles.
