>>40339111
It did happen and it was worse than I cared to anticipate. I've been led down and effectively (albeit unintentionally) lied to by omission. Now I am footing an expensive bill in preparation for something that is now called off and too late to cancel. The whole thing meant the world to me. And this is not the first time this happened, just the closest to the finish line.
It is good you prioritize yourself right now. You do not need other people's petty crap right now. And given her track record, someone who can dish out so unreasonably can stand to tank a hit. Maybe I am just a bit jaded today.
>I hope I’ll have the courage and energy to leave again as soon as I can.
I support that, 100%.
>>40337117
>I'd rather meet new people
Alright, let's go with that for now.
>I don't really know how to find local communities.
Let's start simple then. Is there an obvious lgbt meetup where you could find people who are informed? Cafes and the like, universities..
>I could find things through that if I decide to make an appointment
Why not, as you said, you kinda plan to see a therapist anyway right?
>I'm kind of afraid that even if I do find some local lgbt community thing, it wouldn't be the kind of queer people I could relate with.
The only way to know is to try, let's exhaust options in no particular order rather than trying to anticipate.
>I am now completely enrolled in community college
Does the college have any lgbt related events, perhaps?
>college fund that exists in my name
What is the main thing that makes it hard to reach out? Is the relative difficult?
Also, yes it is a lot you are doing at once. If you feel overwhelmed, do tell me.
>>40341826
Oh it's you, bunon! Thank you for jogging my terrible memory. I also tend to ask even if I have a hunch since I sometimes do guess wrong. Welcome back, I see you already got the ball rolling, I will work my way towards the other posts in a bit. I reply at least to all posts from Thu today and some from Fri.

>>40284222
To be fair you have been through the wringer, it's no wonder it conjures up an inner storm.
>In the meantime I hope things are little less… buzzy on your end
Yeah,
>>40284624
What the actual fuck, Hungary.
>Hungary isn't the safest place to live, not even for cishets. But sure it's based, /pol/ would say :(.
If you allow me to be unproductively bitter for a minute, I take solace in the fact that the vast majority of people who think that would not only be unwelcome, but likely crushed under the same boot they are licking. Most of them are terminally online nerds who grew up in a liberal society and seemingly no conception of their hobbies would be considered effeminate and degenerate.
>But I greentexted enough. I don't want to suffocate the entire thread for myself. I have no right to.
I wouldn't want to force you if you aren't comfy with it but.. I personally grant you permission to speak about yourself more. The main reason I asked about your employment situation is because I am trying to understand is to try and make sense of where things are headed for you. The country is a hot mess by the looks of it and at least for now existential things are secured. Do you have an escape plan of sorts to unplug yourself further from the bullshit? I assume leaving the country is not an option.
>>40285264
Doing my best. I have vacuumed under my bed today, cooked a bit. I will have to wash my bedsheets on tuesday or so.
>>40286603
The days really sometimes come and go at a breakneck pace.. I am grateful for weekends.
>>40287731
Twisted in what way?