starting to feel that autumnal vibe I am, sweatshirt coming out, soon to be the moccasins oh aye oh yes. Hot choc, stews and comfy times.

>>82274480
that is very sad and I cannot imagine how that feels anon, there is nothing comforting to say, life will suck for a very long time but the pain will become easier to live with, you should do nice things for yourself, you never know when your times is up.

thinking about how lifes greatest pleasures dont feel as good as lifes greatest pains, like they dont add up.
>sex
a fleeting feeling, gets boring over time, can be a problem as well as a pleasure, brings pain to not get it, brings problems to have it but feels good for 10 seconds

>great memories with friends and people
also double edged as that can turn into nostalgia later down the line and becomes bitter sweet, people can turn on you, but is a decent top life moment

>food and booze
too much is bad but feels good in the moment

but then you have shit like watching a parent die of a disease, getting a medical problem, heartbreak, death of loved ones, isolation, taxes, shit living conditions etc and those all feel way worse than lifes greatest pleasures. The small things in life are okay but get instantly squashed by the heavier shit which is abundant. I dunno lads, been thinking, I dont think the juice is worth the squeeze yet I persist. I wonder if our suffering is used as energy, why do things have to be so uncomfy.

yeah pretty much, I normie maxxed when I went to uni and had friends, had sex with multiple girls etc etc but its all fleeting, none of it lasts or sticks around and no one has ever truly understood me and women that tried left, male friends never bothered, male friends are always quite surface level, just how it is. Current gf loves me, but she loves a version of me which is carefully curated. It's okay though, I understand me and I got my own back.