>>40284256
Yea sure. Can we have rough incel sex?

the real is back I will attack

a gay friend of mine with feelings for me asked me out recently and it hurt my soul to turn him down.

I trust him, he trusts me, we're very close and know a lot about each other. I trust he'd never try to hurt me, and when he does, he'll apologize and try not to do it again. he's a good soul.

honestly, he'd be the perfect partner. we align on a lot, but have enough differences to be distinct. his intentions are pure, he's capable of compromise, and cares deeply about my well-being. on some level, i think it's fair to say i already love him.

but, he's a man.
he can't have kids
he can't raise children like a mother could
our relationship would be an abomination to the public
and we would be betraying ideals we both deeply believe in by engaging in this

so i turned him down, but it felt so empty doing so, like I had just killed something beautiful.

in my mind i know I did what I had to do, it was necessary to be consistent, to do the thing I know is important to me and right.

but my heart cries out in pure agony and what I did feels incomplete and wrong, like there was some other option that would have led to something better.

i just need to know if i did the right thing or not