i've seen too many people like this who are also alcoholics and treat the servers on the old games they play like bars. it's nice for someone who's never had a father, but it's once you see the bitterness in the stagnation that you realize that you just don't want the same for yourself.

i'm just smiling, pretending my chest doesn't feel like it's been stabbed with a dull knife, singing so that the vibrations ease the tightness and helping regulate my breathing/heartrate. what can i do, hahahahaha, i'm not hiding my pain, it's excruciating, and i'm barely managing to cope, but i believe in my partner for some reason, and trust them to come back.

unless if they're dead, then the knife will be real