I feel like I have graduated out of my tranny thoughts. While they are still there, attempting to transition in secret, realizing what life would mean, and detransitioning has given me new perspective, and there are certain things about being a man that are just so nice, and the feelings I have are now muted, and not so strong. Talking to a therapist about my non tranny life issues has helped me feel better and improved my life. It's slow progress, but I think I am much better now that I started. I dont think I'm ever going to transition again, and I think I can have a life that is worth living.