Thread 40776664

QOTT: Do you think a gf/bf would fix you?
last thread: >>40733041

>>40776664 (OP)
>Do you think a gf/bf would fix you?
No, because I've dated girls and all it did was show me that I don't really like sex and struggle to bond with people. Also the way one told me I have skin and hands "like a girl's" and "have a cute pout" really fucked with my brain. I wish I had trooned out after dating that girl, but damn if I wasn't deep into conservative copes back then about how wrong/evil I would be for it, and now here I am ten years later.

>>40776664 (OP)

Probably. I don't have anything to live for being a wagecuck.
If I had a gf, I could actually start giving a shit about life. For her sake.

>>40776664 (OP)
i have zero interest in relationships as a man

I would like a gf but I am so mentally broken and autistic and wasted my entire 20's being a shut-in virgin with cptsd and anxiety and have never kissed another human being. There is zero chance I could ever date a normie woman. My only compatible partner would be a femcel who is similarly autistic and dysfunctional but that would inevitably end up in a shitty relationship.

This is also ignoring all the repper stuff which decimates my already non-existent dating prospects.

>>40776664 (OP)
Yeah dating a girl made me start to no longer repress

damn i thought we'd finally killed this thread for a minute
qott: nah, ratio of how hard they'd have to try vs reward isn't worth

>>40777050
Same

What about just being effeminately gay?

>>40777050
>>40778241
Thame hereth, thweetieth

I don't think anyone would believe me. I don't know if I even believe myself.

>skin too oily
>weeks since last injection
i caved and did it again but it won't do anything
i've had stinky pits for months and oily skin for a few weeks now
i don't think i can suppress the T anymore
I'd be fine if I didn't get bad BO in 2 days and have such oily face skin

>>40776664 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40776664 (OP)
there is no way to fix me and I will never date or have sex because doing that in this body would be nasty

I'm a man but also have gender dysphoria

>>40779641
What a coincidence. So am I

take your pills retards

>>40777050
might be a classic case of fox and the grapes but I agree, living the rest of my life in silent solitude will build character

>>40776664 (OP)
>Qott
No
I don't trust myself let a lone a bf or gf

>>40780502
Rep fuel

>>40780502
grim

>>40780502
ropefuel

>>40780502
I feel like I'll inevitably end up in his position, no matter if I transition or not, so I rep to just get it over quicker

>>40780502
>detransitioned
>I'm committing suicide

i wonder how these two things could be linked

>>40780742
If my parents and pastor are able to convince me to detroon, I'm going to kill myself as soon as t comes back, and they'll really see how much good for me it does to detroon me

>>40780959
I don't think there's a good argument to say transitioning is a sin 2bh.

been awake less than an hour and crying already

watching forsen to cope

>>40780502
holy shit what a waste

>>40780742
To be fair, there are also trans youtubers whose last video was srs related. Makes you wonder if they regret it and offed themselves.

>>40781302
they finished transitioning they're cis now

>>40781302
which one

>>40781505
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNRNF27Q3clFZ3XAPu9DkUg

>>40781525
last uploaded a month ago = stopped posting

Post your hairlines

>>40778246
I had a bf for a while but i'd cry aster sex because i didnt have a cunt and wasnt female so we broke up. gender is more significant than orientation. I cant be "just" effeminately gay. Ive tried.

>>40782131
i understand how you feel anon, people online just kind of treat you like a "failed male" or something along those lines sometimes and it just makesme feel bad because ill never get to be a girl

>>40782157
like i kinda had a GF in school too and used to be somewhat popular... like you dont troon because you cant get a gf/bf. like I cant really do relationships because of like subconscious gender crap.

>>40782189
i agree anon, i think i probably wouldve had gfs in school and just in general if i hadnt had to deal with any tranny stuff, just thinking about sex with a woman and myself repulses me

What 10 years of being repper NGMI does to MF.

>>40776664 (OP)
no i dont think it would

>>40782537
For me random hook ups work as antidepressants. I get brusied and abused and then I'm mentaly healthy for a week or so.

>>40776664 (OP)join the manmoder gang else become a large, hairy, bald man. You will never pass, but it stops getting worse.

>>40782617
I already am

>>40782510
you look nice, giwtwm

Its too late for me

>>40782510
giwtwm
>>40782617
need a bf who looks like that
>>40782189
yea it's interesting how it changes the way you think about relationships. I thought I was ace for awhile because of how bad trying to have sex felt

>>40783002
same

Will losing weight shrink my head?

>>40783274
Will shooting myself with a shotgun shrink my head?

>pray to God
>ask if I should transition
>2 days later get overwhelming feeling that transition is the right move and is in accordance with God's will

Oh fuck I gotta do it now don't I.

>>40783466
Yeah I did something like this from an occult direction and everything was like "Yes, troon out already idiot" but I've still been putting it off.

>>40782189
> i kinda had a GF in school too and used to be somewhat popular
literally me and trooning after this was quite difficult mentally because of imposter syndrome, even takinfg into account agp orientation and bottom dysphoria.
got lucky with looks though, so it worked out

How long off hrt til my balls start making ropes again

>>40782510
would
also giwtwm

>>40783887
i'm like 3 months off and they don't do shit lol
zero libido but a man have to (try to) do what he can do!

>>40783887
I don't get why anyone cares about doing that if they're a tranny, I always thought it was messy and gross.

>>40778374
Women get oily skin and have BO too… i feel like the estrogen obsession among some is like almost snake oil type hallucination of a substance they believe will fix all their problems

>>40783976
You can make the same argument for why anyone would rep if they're a tranny but life goals and circumstances outweigh desires like this sometimes.

haven't had a proper dose of h.r.t. for like a year
niggahs (that's not a bad thing*) i'm here and ugly freak af!!!!
most of you would pass, you aren't manmoder material at all, just sissy queens tb desu

>>40782131
>gender is more significant than orientation
you would be fine dating other men if you didn't have internalized homophobia (that you call "gender dysphoria")

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

FOR ME YOU ALWAYS WERE

BUT IN THE END IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER

>>40776664 (OP)
From the age of 18 to 22 I went from incel for females only to incel for both genders. Brutal.

>>40784753
BUT HOW OLD WOULD YOU GO?
signed me, really old but cute (kinda... (not really))

>>40780502
lmao

got upset after seeing a trans girl's selfie on twitter again

I literally look like a cispoon and am short af. If only I was a real tranny but honestly my life would still be worse because at least as a man I can date and just be normal and dont have to watch out for myself all the time.

>>40786962
take your pills

>>40782157
>>40782189
That's what depresses me too a little. But I think this board maybe focuses too much on codependent shit, without just being able to exist on your own.

>>40784128
Most gay men are outwardly homophobic and transphobic and misogynist anyways, so who gives a fuck. You don't even believe bisexuality exists.

>>40780502
psy-op pinkpill image, in the last video he talks about chronic health problems and how nobody in his life was willing to lend a hand it had nothing to do with transitioning.

>>40788235
you have to give it to them it's a really good psyop since people are too lazy to verify stuff themselves.

I think I've ended up with an aversion to any sex or relationship type stuff, heterosexual or homosexual.

>>40788235
>taking the suicidal person's word for it
I didn't watch, but if they really got radicalized into being so anti-trans that they'd throw away that much potential then I really doubt they're gonna be honest about their reasons (maybe not even with themselves)

>>40788508
same, dying pure will boost my reroll-as-a-girl odds

>>40788561
I don't know, something really damaged me mentally

>>40788508
Are you me?

>the worst pain imaginable
>it will never stop or get better on its own
>in fact it gets worse with time
>the only way to stop it is to become the thing everyone in the world hates the most
i'm gonna wake up and the nightmare will be over i'm gonna wake up and the nightmare will be over

I had this realization that even as a effeminate woman people would still hate you, it's objectively awful. But still I feel like this.

feels very bad to have no future that I want to live for

Banged the 'tate while watching taker pov again. It's a bittersweet feeling.

The average American woman is on a dozen different anti-psychotics. Would my life really be any better if I was a woman?

>>40783466
God doesn’t communicate through feelings

>>40790940
>Anon is trying to limit the ways of the Lord Almighty in His outreach

lmao

>>40790814
> Banged the 'tate
lmao

Another day of watching porn and imagining myself as the woman.

all weak/failed males including reppers should be veiled

I wish I were a woman.

I "rep" because this is social contagion and most trannies around now would have lived happy lifes as their natal sex if born a couple of decades earlier.
But alas I have to carry the cross of being AGP and needing to see faggotry anywhere shut-ins congregate.

I wish there was a surgery to reduce rib cage size. I think I'd go for it even if they had to like, remove half my lungs for it.

>be born with gender dysphoria as a masculine guy
>no cure
>Only treatment is transition (doesn't do shit)
>can't have a real family
>can't have a long term relationship
>have to take synthetic hormones for the rest of your life or repress
>you are verifiably insane and are much more likely to have psychosis/BPD/NPD/whatever the fuck else
>you will never be happy with your body
>you have to watch cis people be happy with their bodies from birth, living a life in fucking candy land while you rot
>few people even tolerate you
>the people who are supposed to relate to you (other trannies) will 95% of the time tell you you have no problems and that you just need more surgeries/whatever.
Holy fucking moly guys I'm losing it. I'm really losing it. Sometimes it just hits you. It just fucking hits you how fucked it all is. It's fucked

>>40794234
Yer job is to make more transes (fuck women raw)

i am doomèd to be forever a monster.
i have the count'nance of a merciless mobster,
cajoling his customers into buying his
fictive drug. my thorax replaced by a bolster;
i'm reminded of what my nature truly is

Back on the pink pill

>>40795800
>be born with gender dysphoria

You must have an established concept of gender from your past life, I suppose.

>>40796395
This shit will just come up out of nowhere without any prompting, anon. Some of us had this shit from early childhood even if that was back when nobody out on the street even knew what a transsexual was, and thus there was no outside source of the idea or feeling.

>>40796493
mine just popped up out of nowhere, i ignored it for a while and then i decided to embrace it a little as a treat and now everything is fucked and retarded

>>40796553
Mine popped out out of nowhere, but it didn't bother me much until puberty started, which made the ways in which I was abnormal far more obvious. I tried to be myself and got relentlessly bullied and called a 'faggot' (no real perception of trans people back then, remember) by other kids, teachers, and my parents for it so I started repping. And here I am today, still repping.

>>40794049
This is how all chasers and gay men see things isn't it?

>>40788968
>the thing everyone in the world hates the most
This is melodramatic but i understand your frustration and why you’d say that. But if you transition, chasers, other trans people, and all the more accepting cis people will accept and love you. It’s just sad confused angry people who hate transgender people anyway, so they don't matter

>>40780959
They'll just reframe it as they did their best to save you and helped a little, but ultimately the weight of satan was or the shame of having transitioned at all in the first place got to you.

They're literally, never, ever, accept the idea that you repressing transitioning led to your suicide or any dysfunction in life, ever.

May God if God exists validate our existence in heaven or hell. For that alone I'd gladly step into non-existence.

>>40784128
just leave

>>40797094
idk but i see as a form of boyremoval a modest one

>>40797192
>It’s just sad confused angry people who hate transgender people anyway
they're everywhere

every time i meet a tranny they are always giga HSTS youngshit passoids post FFS who want SRS who want a chad boyfriend and are hyperfeminine and i just feel totally mogged, even if i had transitioned, even if i had put the effort in my brain will never bridge the gap, my brain doesnt want to be a woman. id just be a clocky AGAMP manmoding transbian (ew) who is just generally kind of uncomfortable trying to be a girl because im not one. ill just move, act, talk like a man. these girls are years younger than me and already fully transitioned, how can i compete with that? its over

>>40795800
the worst part about dealing with other trannies is that the ones who pass will lie and hugbox you to your face and pretend to be your friend because they feel sorry for you.

>>40797384
This is also true of trannies in reverse when they say that you have to transition to be happy and that if you kys anyway they will rationalize it as you losing to dysphoria and not that maybe attempting a hopeless transition made your mental health worse. People will always rationalize your choices to suit them and justify their own worldview. Ultimately it doesnt matter if you're dead, nobody cares about how you feel beyond the utility of how it serves them.

>>40799536
trvthnvke

>>40799108
But there opinions don’t really matter. And when we’re all dead inevitably someday and we return to a state of unified togetherness they’ll see that it was wrong to be hateful and unaccepting

>>40799520
As a cisf lurker i like transbians more because theyre transitioning for the female gaze instead of the male gaze and for some reason it feels more feminist to me. There is no gendered soul so if you transition and still feel like a man, i promise there’s some cis woman somewhere who probably feels very similar to the way you do.

>>40800469
>theyre transitioning for the female gaze
wut just be a man at that point

>>40800469
I'm simultaneously distressed and relived at the idea of the soul not being gendered.

I think there's a justification aspect that isn't resolved like "I wouldn't want to transition in the first place if I didn't feel a pull towards it I didn't chose to have," mixed with a hypersensitivity from constantly hearing people on here talk about "just stop fapping/being homophobic/w/e and the feelings go away," that makes me reject the idea.

Simultaneously, the idea that all of this nonsense and suffering wasn't inherently tied to the core of my being, and that I'd be liberated from it eventually is appealing.

Either way, I think it's healthiest to transition for one's own self i.e. to relieve dysphoria and feel a sense of agency in life instead of to serve either the male gaze or female gaze desu.

Sorry for the random reply, I'm sorta talking to myself I guess.

>>40799536
People won't always do that, but they sure are likely to do that when it comes to things like transitioning.

Weird since it's comparatively NOT something that interferes in most people's business as much as other things.

It just messes with people's minds because trannies are the go-to for people's gripes with gender in general I guess.

>>40794049
>Hijabed
According to your immigration policy

>>40800888
other cultures wear veils too

femreppers: based or cringe?

my face hurts every morning from ripping hair out of it with tweezers

>>40801507
larp it only hurts the first time after that you dont even feel anything
>t. tweezed facial hair meticulously from age 15-33

>>40799529
Which Is why I don't associate with trannys. They're all crazy weirdos.

>>40801692
it doesn't really hurt during, but it definitely does afterwards
probably because I get little chunks of skin by accident and also because I always go back over with a razor to make sure my face is completely clean

>>40801743
>go back over with a razor to make sure my face is completely clean
lol if you tweeze the hair is usually too sparse and small to catch with a razor
i call larp + stupid

>>40801773
the razor is for the small hairs that are hard to see and grab
I'm not larping but maybe I am stupid, teach me your technique

>>40801804
if you can't grab it you sure as hell can't shave it
get a magnifying mirror

good morning repgen it's college football saturday are we all excited for another fun fall of guys being dudes
>>40801409
based

>>40801507
i'm gonna buy a laser to stop doing this but because of that now i have to see my facial hair and shave it every day

>>40801409
they should be forcibly injected with testosterone

>>40801507
>>40801692
I feel like you have to be very lucky to be able to do this, I grow a normal amount of facial hair for a male and I can't imagine the time investment plucking it would be.

If the cure for dysphoria came out how many trannies do you think would detransition?

>>40803764
idk but personally if I was a passing tranny I definitely wouldn't.
a magic cure sure would be nice to have as a repper though

>>40803764
On an emotional level I'd feel dissatisfied with any cure that didn't change your sex, since you're basically removing a part of my internal identity while still leaving me stranded with like, the desire to engage in women's social roles, behavior, dress etc etc. You simply removed the "I want to be an actual woman, being male is suffering" aspect and turned me into some weirdo drag queen I guess. Or if you delete all that too then you've basically completely changed who I am and made me someone else.

>>40804656
>since you're basically removing a part of my internal identity

Never really understood this. I think of my identity as my interests, dispositions, my personality, not my disgust at my own body.

have i become a framecel? i've been repping since my early teens had the opportunity to troon out at 16 but pussied out. now im 21 and thinking about it again but my body (late puberty btw, didnt even go through puberty at 16 yet LOL) developed and gave me linebacker shoulders. second pic incoming.
is there still hope for me

>>40805174
>>40776664 (OP)
here's the second one

>>40805174
>is there still hope for me
yes

>>40803764
i'd be thrilled, idk if many people who've actually transitioned would do it because they all probably have a much healthier handle on things

What would the /repgen/ afterlife look like?

>>40805190
I-ITS THE DEMON BACK

be 100% honest here, your anatomy is fully male. your ribcage and shoulders are clearly proportionally much larger compared to your hips, and you have quarterback shoulders. IDK tho. maaaaaybe you can pass.

>>40805708
sweetie... we're already there.
this is hell, your suicide was a success.

>>40805878
>>40805200
it's over. i used to literally get mistaken for a girl because of my mannerisms, frame/bone structure and height and now it has all passed. i learned to walk and have more masculine body language, my bones developed to be masculine and... actually im still 5'4 so that's fine but still.
this is fucked, baggy oversized clothing style save me

>>40805902
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

>>40805902
How did you know I had a suicide attempt....

>>40805902
what happens if i kill myself in hell

>>40805950
kek, 5'4" with this stature, IDK if it's gonna do you any good. might end up looking like one of them gypsies who were malnourished during adolescence.

>>40805902
wouldn't this be purgatory and then I'll kill myself again and get to hell

i'm going to kill myself

>>40806037
sorry for crushing all ur dreams anon. im sure scientists will make more technologies for u to become wemon in the future.

>>40805902
repperhell...

Transitioning is so humiliating. You think I want to be this way? Like why hate me I didn't do shit.

>>40807408
stop trespassing in repgen please

>>40807710
I'm not on estrogen

>>40776664 (OP)
would a repper bf fix me

>>40807728
oh okay, disregard then

im going to give repper dads vials of estrogen when the bring their kids for trick or treating

>>40808009
no but it'd probably be really funny to see one try
>>40808147
based

>>40806068
>im sure scientists will make more technologies for u to become wemon in the future.
yeah i'm hoping for that
idk if i manmode in the meanwhile or just keep repping

>>40808528
In 5 years you'll pass to the point of stealth. you're so young you wont even remember a time you didn't pass by the time youre a complete passoid. Do not listen to negative anons here. Leave 4chan and dont be harsh on yourself for the next 5 years transition, give yourself grace.

all the wasted years
i live in hell

>>40808746
>In 5 years you'll pass to the point of stealth.
lol no
>you're so young
i'm prob older than you

out of beers FUCK

>>40809092
the worst feeling
any chance of new beers on the horizon?

>>40809104
not till tomorrow everythings closed
I only have a tiny bit of wine leftover from cooking with

i can't distract myself anymore

im certain im trans but i never got a chance to express it and now im married and my wife has made very clear she will not approve of it and i love her so much so the plan is to just tank it

how long do y'all give me before i fucking kill myself

>>40809435
shouldn't have started a relationship as a repper you retard

>repgen
>mmg
>no bmg
>no mtfg
>no hrtgen
has the trannicide began or what? what happened to the trannies and hons? are they pretending to be normal again?

the antidepressants stopped working i want to kill myself again

>>40809552
try a real antidepressant (alcohol)

>>40809558
i don't think i can afford to be an alcoholic

>>40809569
it's literally so affordable just buy port it's like ten bucks for a ton

>>40809569
>>40809578
or don't do that because it's bad for you or something sorry

>>40809578
can't i just kill myself instead

>>40809536
hellworld

>>40809588
an added bonus of alcohol is that is slowly does that over time if you drink enough

help me

>>40809536
this board has been dying hard the past few months and yeah i think its pretty much over for us in general

I would have changed things, I know it.

Feeling particularly dysphoric tn

i don't want this pain anymore

>>40809536
the wave of youngshits from the 2010's have fully transitioned. Transition is a solved problem now there's no mystique or ancient wisdom to pass on or even a journey of self discovery just get on pills at 13 and you've solved 99% of the problem.

So now all the schizo 20-something AGPs that created the board culture are either done with transition or roped. Everyone here is the tranny equivalent of an Iron Lung survivor.

>>40809943
huh TIL there's still a person out there on the iron lung. wonder if that person will die before we all start getting polio again

>>40809536
isn't around 50% tranicide kinda normal

i wish a beautiful domme was making me feel miserable right now

I would have been such a cool tranny

i could have been happy

anyone here coping by watching reruns of family guy lol

i wish it was possible to just be a feminine male uwu

i know trans girls don't like finding out their bf is a repper but what if they knew from the start

>>40810060
im gonna watch forsen play hollow knight

i kinda look like a tranny and hang out with trannies so whenever i meet new people they always ask me what i am, i just ask them what they think i look like and they always say i give off masculine vibes. its so over

>>40809719
this site is dying in general tbhon
idk where to move on to

>i think its pretty much over for us in general
idk, maybe i still get on hrt

>>40776664 (OP)
>Big Wife
kek'd

>>40805878
ehh
>>40805190
nice V for a guy BUT
you're still twinky, and not exactly hueg-ribcage'd, so I'd wonder how things would turn out if those lats melted due to woman-tier T levels
>>40805950
>actually im still 5'4
you know what you need to do

>>40809441
well how the fuck was i supposed to know i was trans when you spend two decades and change strictly trying not to think about yourself and just moving forwards
like holy fuck it just feels a little bit worse every day, its like being cursed

how many reppers trad cope not chud trvd cope but trad cope?

it's depressing when the porn sesh ends i was having such relaxing time going through some stacy's OF and IG lost in agp thoughts

when the agp so bad cding just calms you down instead of turning you on

>>40812036
ackshually calm feelings are just lowkey arousal

>>40812045
it's true, everything everyone ever does makes them irredeemable creeps

why is my skull so huge

>>40812026
>>40812036
why is agp the only fetish that requires stress management? This is so unfair.

>>40812127
men are creeps

I thought avoiding these threads would help me pretend not to be a repper but i still wake up every morning with the schism
>>40776664 (OP)
I love my gf and having her in my life helps but does not fix it. At least I can avoid tranny porn by just having sex
>>40811795
I live a pretty traditional almost 20th century like life. Its one of the better copes

>>40776664 (OP)
>QOTT: Do you think a gf/bf would fix you?
I fantasize so but in reality I know it would just make things orders of magnitude worse

Why are the problems in my life so pathetic?
>AGP from birth
>3rd worlder
>lazy as fuck
>zero social skills
>bitches about anything
>genuinely a bad person
>some mild flavor of autistic
Some people need to struggle with chronic illnesses, life-threatening addictions or extreme poverty. I know I should be glad I don't need to deal with those, but I can't help but feel completely worthless when the things that fuck my life over are so... childish? Pitiful? I can't even find the words for it.
I know most of these are my fault and I need to fix this myself. I want to change. But how do I move on knowing I spent almost 2 decades being this worthless? I feel like I'll never make up for living like this.
Is anyone else this disappointing as a person? Is this just the average repper life? John 50 gave me the impression we would have decent careers at the very least.

>>40800893
There is a huge difference between the veil and the hijab. The difference between cultures. The one that still exists and the one that they are trying to impose.

>>40813590
>3rd worlder
What country do you live in?

>>40813590
>AGP
>third worlder
not possible, agps require imperial core levels of comfort to manifest.

>>40813723
>not possible

Shut up you giga privileged western pig. Go to your pass gen or whatever.

>>40813673
Brazil. Could be worse, I guess. I could be starving in Africa or getting beheaded in the Middle East, so at least I got that going for me.

>>40813723
>agps require imperial core levels of comfort to manifest.
Your idea does not make sense and is based on nothing, but even if it did make perfect sense, comfort is completely subjective, and largely based on how you were raised. My baseline for what I consider "comfortable" is lower than the baseline of your average american upper class white girl, for instance. But my baseline is also higher than the baseline of someone raised in an uncontacted tribe in the amazon rainforest. People are influenced by their enviroment way more than they'd like to admit.

>>40813590
>Is anyone else this disappointing as a person?
I'm definitely worse

>>40813830
>Brazil
Brazil looks friendly but when I started to dig deeper. Well that's sad.

found out my friend's bf is a repper too, what do I do with this information

>>40813973
pink pill her

>>40814006
how do I pinkpill someone if I can't pinkpill myself

>>40814010
tell her all the things you need to hear yourself

i'm good at pinkpilling others but can't pinkpill myself

>>40814054
pinkpill me

>>40814105
estrogen will make you too retarded to suffer

>>40814162
i don't want to be retarded

I just don't understand how I'm supposed to troon if my parents would absolutely not approve of that. I don't live with them, but I imagine they might want to do video calls or have me visit them occasionally. Am I just supposed to never do that ever again?

>>40814670
>I don't live with them
I envy

I don't think I even deserve to call myself a repper. There is a good chance that I ended up mistaking other mental health issues for dysphoria, but I can't find a way to prove it one way or the other.
How do I even know whether I am repping anything?

>>40776664 (OP)
man op picrel really has me rolling tbhaitch

estrogen would have saved me

why do the femrepper threads always have more dialogue going on? i take a peek there and it's just walls of text. here we're lucky if we get more than 2 sentences in a post.
are femreppers more intelligent than the average male repper?

>>40809943
>13
you mean 11?

>>40816527
haven't really looked at that thread before but it seems like it's just a couple of ppl posting walls of text
wonder if everything here getting flattened into agp plays into it though
we probably are dumber though will give you that

>>40816527
this general is genuinely just incoherent rambling, anyone who doesn't hide it as soon as they arrive or have it filtered is insane

>>40816527
They were raised like their opinions matter

>>40816527
Women don't have dysphoria. Why do you think so many FTM detransition

>>40816527
i just want to be a girl, why do i need a big essay about it

>>40816527
>>40816780

>saw bright lights in the corner of my eye when i was younger
>hear my voice being called when i hear a lot of "static" sounds (radio static, rain, etc.)
>heard a chorus for a second a few days ago in the middle of the night
>felt a grasshoper climb my leg, TOUCHED IT for a second, but when i looked at where it was supposed to be, it was nowhere in sight
>family has history of schizophrenia and psychotic breaks
>symptoms for schizophrenia usually start developing in early adulthood (my age)
is this it bros? i don't think i'll be able to handle this life if so. i can't live a normal life even while being sane. at least if i'm right and i'm actually going schizo this settles the tranny thoughts, because there's no way in hell i'm transitioning with a schizophrenia diagnosis. the joke would be writing itself.
i'm tired.

>>40816867
insanely moided thinking
>>40816527
they are all fighting one another you guys just rant while crashing out and never reply to one another.

>>40816527
I've tried to have big in-depth conversations here but nobody ever replies.

>>40816906
>insanely moided thinking
:(

>>40816906
>they are all fighting one another
we are too sad to fight each other

>>40816882
>heard a chorus for a second a few days ago in the middle of the night

I've had this happen to me many times and I'm not schizo...(yet)

it hurts me to see this shit happen to you anon. Life is painful and full of misery. I wish I could help you but I can't even do anything about my shitty life.

>>40816925
its ok anon practice writing more about how it makes you feel it will help you process your emotions

>>40816909
i always feel super annoying because 90% of what i type gets ignored
>>40816994
real

I have a friend who cannot stop whining about how much he hates women every day and it's annoying as fuck. I think it'd drive him insane if he knew his friend was a repping tranny.

>>40813642
they have decorative ones too
i like the female ninja esque aesthetic though which is actually for day to day life and not for just a photoshoot or event

>>40817965
ask him if he ever wanted to be a woman lol, he could be repping too

>>40813830
maybe if you were starving or getting beheaded you wouldn't have these thoughts because you'd have more base (or based) animistic instincts like a tiger or wolf

>>40813590
no wonder the thread is shit lol

>>40817965
based friend
whenever my friends ask me why I'm never interested in dating or anything I just pretend to really really hate women, the fact that I'm actually incredibly jealous of them makes it easy to be convincing

>>40817965
>>40818473
trvke
i was in a gc called "inkwells" with a few friends before and one of them called me the truest truecel before i told him i was trans

I would literally be having the time of my life right now if retarded 17yo me hadn't made the retarded choice to not transition while I still had a chance to not be miserable forever

>>40816527
Because women talk more, simple as. Just goes to show that neither of us will ever truly pass as it's malebrained to have a slower general like ours, and fembrained for theirs to be the opposite.

Does anyone here go to gender therapy?

>>40820983
I will never speak to TheRapist

Just put on makeup and cried

All I want is to look like Chun-Li. Is this too much to ask for???

ahh that was a nice 4 hours of being too uncomfortable in my body to sleep, time for my morning beer to help me get ready for class

>>40816527
Because femrepgen posters actually reply to each other.

I'd probably transition if I received even the slightest affirmation from a partner ngl

>>40810452
why do you do this to yourself?

>>40822370
same, good reason to stay truecel

>>40822435
yeah, I could never get close to anyone before top surgery and even then you can't lie to a partner forever

>>40820983
oxymoron

that feel after you just waxed and shaved your face

i feel like a woman!

>pay attention to my hands by accident
>freak out internally for a second
feels bad

>>40822570
This has happened to me before.
The "Oh shit, that's my body" moment. Very horrifying.

i have my mothers hands thankfully, my dad has sausage fingers

Being a woman is like a childhood dream that will never actually come true. We all wanted to be something cool, right? Doctors, firefighters, astronauts, superheroes, the list goes on. Most of us never actually achieve what we dreamed of, and we move on just fine.
Sure, looking at a pretty woman makes me feel a pain in my heart for a few seconds, but what am I gonna do about it now? The window for that has already closed, time to look for something else. It's sad, but that's life. We never fully get what we want, there's always a regret that will stay with us to the bitter end.
(secretly posting this in hopes a pinkpiller will prove my points wrong and show me a better way, even though i know that wont happen)

>>40822892
>Most of us never actually achieve what we dreamed of, and we move on just fine.
not me lol

Whenever you transition please fill out this form /repgen/.

>>40823231
t. rooned a year ago comes here to pinkpill every now and again

>>40776664 (OP)
Lads, I bought a new batch of hrt last night. I have been low dosing on and off for a few years. No significant changes except maybe slower aging. However this morning I looked at myself and thought hey, I could look a better with a high T hunter look and all E does is make you look more soft and undefined. I could be more attractive to women and men. I am straight but have realised I have a weird need to be attractive to men which I think is a possible cause of transgenderism. Anyway, I've decided to run a new experiment. I have bought T blood tests and T injections and am going to see if boosting to high percentile ranges fixes things.

why can't reppers live the carefree life of a mildly successful bachelor

it distresses me how tiny women are

I feel like I have graduated out of my tranny thoughts. While they are still there, attempting to transition in secret, realizing what life would mean, and detransitioning has given me new perspective, and there are certain things about being a man that are just so nice, and the feelings I have are now muted, and not so strong. Talking to a therapist about my non tranny life issues has helped me feel better and improved my life. It's slow progress, but I think I am much better now that I started. I dont think I'm ever going to transition again, and I think I can have a life that is worth living.

>>40823458
because repping destroys the mind and destroys the soul

>>40823231
Detrooned male

>>40823474
feel like it shouldn't be that hard but it is
painfully raising a dysfunctional family might be easier

>>40823468
good shit anon, sounds like you're on your own path

>>40823458
I mean I am it's just that I'm also extremely mentally ill as a fun side project

>>40823499
> feel like it shouldn't be that hard
thats the insidious nature of repping, it always feels just barely manageable

>>40823468
ick

should i anal masturbate today i makes me feel alive

>>40823561
sure

i like to imagine what it will be like if my parents find out im trans, the pain and hurt and disgust in their eyes all at once. the ultimate rejection of me as a person and the solidification of myself as nothing more than a living suicide

>>40823474
trve
I feel this happening to me in real time

>>40823587
I do this but with them finding out I committed suicide and it's the only reason why I'm still alive

>>40823231
If I end up doing it it would probably be
>Terrified of going bald
>I hate it as much as you do
>probably not but who knows
>better than killing myself
>who fucking knows

I'm starting to understand manmoders
I have zero chance of ever successfully transitioning into the person I want to be but the idea of becoming a eunuch to cope seems more and more appealing every day. Ideally I could also be a hermit who lives in peace alone in the woods but I would need to finance that somehow which is difficult since currently I barely have enough motivation to get out of bed in the morning.

Ain't no law gonna bring me down
Ain't no cops in this old town
Going right down to the liquor store
Gonna drink 'till I can't drink no more

>>40823568
it feels wrong

>>40823850
erm based
buy some Finlandia for me I ran out

>>40823898
wear a blindfold to help disassociate and shave so accidentally touching your disgusting body doesn't ruin it, that's what I do

ahh the testosterone production is ramping back up again. I can already feel myself giving less of a fuck again - and with my newly gained experience in beauty and care I'm a beautiful faggot.

>>40823983
kill yourself gincel

>>40823998
kek watch me get a bf within four weeks I got a few good matches lined up (not on Grindr of course)

>>40823231
This is how I was feeling and what I said 4 years ago when starting HRT.

I CAN'T COPE WITH BEING MALE
I DON'T WANT TO BE MALE
FUCK LIFE

>>40824016
I'm trvecel trverepper till I die you stupid fucking jewish nigger, stop disturbing my thread and bait trannies who are retarded enough to respond to you like you normally do

>>40824053
I'm not who you think I am

I haven't slept since Friday

>>40824060
you give off the same vibes so I hope you die choking on aids blood regardless

>>40824085
waow why so homophobic dipshit?

>>40824103
because your post gave me the ick

I'm extremely exhausted but my brain is too steeped in angry aggressive scary man chemicals to fall asleep

A homeless cis person has a better life quality than the most attractive passoid on earth.

I would saw off a leg at the waist to be a normal cis person.

>>40823468
>and there are certain things about being a man that are just so nice
glad to see someone also noticed those aspects. it's very common to see reppers and trannies despise masculinity with every ounce of their being, completely ignoring the practical upsides of being male. honestly i've been warming up to the idea again lately after realizing i can actually do cool shit in the world with this body, even if it isn't perfect. worrying too much about looks just makes you psychotic as you grow older (picrel)

>and I think I can have a life that is worth living.
good luck anon, we're all gonna make it.

>>40825484
Ive achieved a lot with this male body. I have pretty good genes. The reason I've been repping so long is that trooning feels like giving in, or just a diet version of killing myself

Sometimes I feel like many FTMs (terfs) transition to make our dysphoria worse.

>>40826082
I feel that. From an objective standpoint I understand the ftm struggle and in some cases they have no chance of passing without looking like Glenn Danzig, but seeing a girl turn herself into a chud is torturous

I cope by exclusively masturbating trannies

>>40826411
Same but /hfur/.

>>40825484
I don't despise masculinity with every ounce of my being, I despise *being* masculine with every ounce of my being.

>>40826198
Danzigs skull is fucking massive dude what are you on

i cant take it i will never be a normal human repping is pointless since by repressing i cant live life, the only solution is to not live at all

>>40827146
yeah they'd be lucky to look like him, his height's really the only thing they'd have

i can't take this anymore but i continue to take it

>>40827678
this every day thinking to myself "i have to end this soon" but i never do

>>40826411
i wish i could have agp transbian sex with a tranny

>numbness and twitching in side of face
soon desu

i hate my awful moid body i hate my awful moid brain

>>40827837
giwtwm

I wish I had great big fat tits that I would never show to another soul

I wish I had a button that would swap me between a male, androgyne (amab), androgyne (afab), and female body instantly
God I hate being genderfluid

i can't be not sad anymore

>>40829639
same but with medium sized ones