>>40481355
Could it be that you are debating between your duty to society (very natural and acceptable, even if it's partially influenced by the education/hopes given to you as a man), and what your heart desire?
I, have thought the same for a long time, being a big fan of the images posted here with this dichotomy represented. But I have decided that I will try to do both, as there is only one life and only my way.