Honestly slowly feeling good about myself as a man. I'm pretty cute. There are good things about masculinity. I think guys can be hot. I wont make a good woman. I tried and it's not me. I just need to be myself and forget about all this bullshit gendered stuff. It can be fun to play into some aspects of masculinity. Some aspects are toxic. I just need to confess my life story to a therapist and make my own way in life, and then I will find true happiness. Throughout my life, the risky option was always the wrong choice, and the option I didn't want to take that was safe, turned out to grow on me and later clearly the right choice. Basically transition is the wrong choice and being a man will grow on me overtime. But that doesn't need to be boxed into gender boxes nor does it mean I need to like all things or embrace all aspects of masculinity. I just need to make my own way and live life how I want not giving a fuck about how other people see me.

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Probably for a few reasons, idk, I dont claim to know anything but T causes very noticeable permanent changes, and I feel women organize and seek support from others more often but there's probably many other reasons. I dont really fit into other detroon places because Im not religious, I dont hate trans people, I dont want to continue to take hrt or be non binary or whatever. the few mtftms that exist fixate on like weird sexual reasons for trooning or just had internalized homophobia and I dont really relate to any of that tbhdesu but whatever

hump