shane buddy I got a lot of time on my hands here, and I gotta say things haven't been going so well for me lately. I guess you could say l've kind of fallen into a dark place again. Fallen off course from reaching my grave while doing my best to not accumulate bad karma. I have demons that follow me and fuck with my life constantly to the point where I moved to a remote location and now I live off of starlink and going to the grocery store once every 2 months because I can't talk to people. I haven't spoken to anyone in real life in over 3 years aside from nodding at cashiers. I am not a well person. I've been permabanned off of every social media platform that exists because the english language is illegal except right here on the surface. I refuse to join TOR to find freedom as it's not freedom it's a honeypot for pedos.
So l'm here. Not everyone can just go out and find friends and be normal, some people have issues and are broken and isolated. I use this as my only source of reminding myself that I'm still human. You must be more broken than I am to have been lashing out for over a year and not finding a different path. I did for a long time because practically everyone I came across on the board was in the same bucket of crabs throwing insults when anyone showed anything real. and then these threads popped up and became an island that I could sit on and not be so angry for awhile. I started feeling better like there was still a few actual decent people out here. and someone that actually strived to be kind on top of it all But then you slowly started eroding it away. and now were here. it's the most depressing and stressful time of year and there's nothing left. You're like a force of nature that balanced the light with darkness and hate but you went too far like evil people always do. You overstepped your boundary and you killed the only thing that meant anything to me anymore. I knew this wasn't the path but it was the only one with a light to follow. GOODBYE
