>>40707807
if u werent much of a gooner then I think what you were actually experiencing was gender appreciation and a bit of euphoria at the idea of being perceived as a femboy, which is a valid identity. the fact you're disgusted is likely just internalised transphobia.

not to project a bit but I had similar feelings when I was a bit younger of not wanting to grow into a "man", and if you are feeling that way then you likely are not a man and are either some form of non-binary/gender-non-conforming or just straight up trans.

either way I don't think you should detrans or stop taking E, you need to think about what you genuinely wanna look like in 10 years or even 20 years time and what would make you comfortable as a middle-aged and or elderly person. curious, how old are you actually?

For the last few summers I've been wearing boring black swim trunks and a rash guard, but this summer I have a bf and he said I wasn't allowed anymore of that 'bullshit.' He bought me a really cute realtree camo set and although it was rlly scary at first, he took me to the queer beach and nobody looked or cared! I've done it a few times now and today I did it at a normal beach with one of my friends and its so fun! I feel like I finally am a real girl...
What's stopping you, anonette?

As a boymoder, i hate normies who are obsessed with the beaches. I really don't understand beachfags. What the hell is good of going to the beach and doing nothing interesting there??? Summers are horrible already why make it worse?? I cannot go outside without feeling that I am roasting and getting skin cancer. It is so goddamn hot that you get all sweaty and icky. The parking and the people are horrible, and there is never a bathroom nearby. The sand gets everywhere, and you take it home with you. I just don't understand what is the appeal of going to the beach with a bunch of boomermoids with bear bellies and burnt skins looking at you. I hate normies soo much. I don't give a fuck about going to Spain or Hawaii. I want to go to Iceland.

will you ever go swimming again?