>>41631566
i used to meditate n such and workout like transmax and things were going good for a bit then i was supposed to have ffs and on the bed i tested positive for covid and i had to wait two weeks in that time my work changed how they cover ffs so i got cucked outta ffs and from my leave of absence it messed up my insurance too somehow for the coming year also i went into debt for free surgery also when my dad found out i was trans a little before this and during that period he wrote a letter saying he would kill me and would call my work various store in the chain i worked at to try and find out where i lived i already have ptsd from he being very physically abusive growing up and i don’t know how to maintain any relationships in my life and im a monster and im old now too ik i want to kms i thinks most people take more than can give me but im actually a black hole idk theres more to ik i need to kms ik it has to happen but im too scared and its selfish i can t

>>40796671
i was supposed to have ffs but as they were about to put me under i tested positive for covid then my jobs insurance change when into effect in the two weeks i had to wait bc the hospital rules so i couldn’t have tge surgery and have it and my leave of absence fucked yo my insurance renewal so i didn’t have insurance for a year and now am trying to sort it but im not a functional person and i went into debt for a “free surgery” bc im a poor retard and i moved across the country bc im from the south and i shouldn’t have

has life consistently not gone the way you want since being born the wrong sex? my life has consistently followed the trend of setting me up for one thing then doing the opposite like constant momentary dysphoria with reality. incompatibility with every given moment. i hope i don’t wake up in the morning

>>40266731
i got harassed and humiliated for being tranny by a customer less than a month ago

>>40263848
no

me tooo nona