>>40940977
This

>have a decent 30+ days clean streak
>feeling good, no intrusive sexual thoughts or lusting, keeping up with exercise
>see a thirst trap thumbnail for a video on youtube
>something triggers in my brain and my descent back into subhuman gooner spastic begins
I don't get, one look while my guard was down was all it took. It's like I just change completely once lust takes over, I fucking hate this shit. I hate that I've been addicted to this shit since I was a kid and that I'm actually fucking brain damaged as a result of it.
I'm beginning to think that I'll never be able to free myself from the yoke of lust, it's just a fight that I cannot win no matter what and it fucking sucks.

>>22981476
Some of those posters are no longer with us. F.