Last month I actually ended up having my first kiss. I felt like a million bucks after. Even better I guess, she was the one that initiated the kiss. However, things didn't work out and she chose to stop seeing me because I wasn't particularly romantic enough for her. Which I understood because I am a 35 year old guy who has no experience in that realm of things. I really cherish the time I did get to spend with her though because she enabled me to realize that maybe I am not as awful as I thought? I use to think that my dating issues were a result of me just being naturally ugly or hideous or unworthy of even seeking out love. Maybe all that isn't true though because what would possess a woman to even kiss me? To even WANT to kiss me of her own volition? Anyway, what can I do to continue to improve?
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How can I improve being romantic I guess? I have never been a romantic person but I think thats because I haven't really been given opportunities to do so? I have no idea what I am doing.
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I experience a lot of shame and embarrassment for being 35 and not having had these sorts of interactions already. I have coworkers who are my age with teenage kids and they talk about their kids dating interactions and how they are growing up etc. I feel grossly under experienced and I try my best to never even speak of dating to anyone in case they ask me questions. How can I move past this embarrassment?
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What would have made a woman even want to kiss me? I never got to ask her but I was curious because to me, I am a horrible person with not much to offer. I felt so great when she kissed me and I felt the negativity sort of melt off me. A part of me sort of wishes she had never kissed me though because now I know that feeling and now who knows when I will experience it again.
How to improve dating wise?
