>>82494736
Op has mentioned he is the product of a mudshark, he also mentioned the desire to spread his seed and that his parents split up
I think what we are seeing here is the oedipus complex and op trying to cope with it, taking the place of his father and replacing his mother with another white woman and recreating the circumstances of his birth
To support my theory, op. Does the white women you feel attracted to are similar to your mother on their physical appearance? (Similar body type, skin tone, eye/hair color)