>>76435145
Basically if you had continous neglect/abuse early in your life your brain gets rewired in a way that helps you survive that time but it actively damages you in the long run. If you have attachment issues, if you're unable to build any relationship with people and instead prefer to self-isolate even if it hurts you (the desire for intimacy yet the fear of it), if you have an extremely low self-esteem and anxiety/depression, if you're abusing drugs or alcohol, if you have sudden outburst of anger, if you ever wondered what the fuck is wrong with you and why the fuck you're like this, you most likely have this shit. Or at least, that's what i understand about it. This shit has been eating me alive for decades.

I don't know how to deal with loneliness. I just go outside somewhere and feel like i'm a fucking alien.