I'm so fucking tired of my life. Been working for 3 years and I'm fucking miserable. It's a well paying job for my country and working conditions are not bad, but every day I end up feeling lobotomized from all the thinking done(software eng) so I can't enjoy anything after work. The only time when I'm actually happy is from 5am to 8am where I can draw anime grills and shitpost here without being socially pressured to anything. Also I'm the only person at my household that works and pays for a lot of stuff so if I lose my job our quality of life will plummet. Mom is old and will stop working soon, and my sisters are unemployed. One has been unemployed for like 3 years after uni ffs.
I feel cucked beyond belief. Truly a Gregor Samsa life. I want to self destruct, quit everything and be an unemployed but happy loser