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But in all actuality talk to someone you trust. Not necessarily dramadump but simply tell someone about your struggles. A professional would be optimal but verbalizing your thoughts and feelings can help immensely regardless of the person on the receiving end. A woman won't fix your predicament, in the end you're the architect of your own fortune and self-improvement and self-actualization, not in the homoerotic /fit/izen or crypto/hussle bro type of way, can be pretty noble goals in and of themselves.
Otherwise convert to islam and try getting a new high score or something.