>>41334041
Hm, I understand your concerns about getting overwhelmed. One question is whether you can attend university classes for free where you live, to get a feel for things.
>No, the background noise is to not get too deep inside my head or my thoughts start spiraling.
Oh, maybe music or something unobtrusive? Essentially white noise?
>It's definitely the biggest one.
Okay, I have a few tips for that for reading in particular. Do check https://youtu.be/0BwRauAB6Zc (from the resources), and consider keeping a book next to your bed, sofa, or wherever you spend a fair amount of free time.
>Then the issue here is figuring out what I want to do
Alright. One thing that might be useful as a list of your goals. If you are aware of Maslow's hierarchy of needs you can try brainstorm with it and put some goals into the various tiers, then we can try make sense of it.
>>41335384
>closure, in any way, is scary to me in a way i cannot put into words.
I am well aware of that fear, the human mind hates change and unknowns. Especially in social settings like this. Nothing worse than standing still can come of it. It just.. doesn't feel that way. It only gets easier the more you deal with these things. You put it quite beautifully yourself. I'm happy to be there, I would love to hear from you soon, even if you didn't end up doing it. This way you aren't scared of updating us, I hope!
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>>41321956
I hope all of you get plenty of rest, anons. I don't know what you are going through, I will gladly listen, but even if it feels pointless it is important we maintain our bodies to rid us of some of this tiredness.