>>82410394
anon... sigh. did your "friends" coerce into doing that? well at least she gave you a second opportunity. just, try to be good from now on okay? and definitely don't take pictures of anything in college anymore.
>>82410445
>The average person here lives with such a cognitive dissonance i can't even
it might just be that everyone's is actually just dissociating from the horrors being alive brings. thoughever this might just be really wishful thinking from my end. here it kinda feels like people now that things suck, yet are either too stupid to care, or too stupid to understand it.
>We're all victims of circumstance
indeed, im a strong believe in the "in good there's evil and in evil there's good" saying. no one is simply one or the other, and most of the time if i get hurt by someone, i try to put myself in their shoes, and think why they would do that to me. maybe it's because of how they were raised, maybe they have a mental issue, maybe they didn't want to but were forced by something to do that. it helps with like, being more accepting of everything i guess
>You know
ah yeah, i get it now. just yesterday my grandpa said something like that, though it was a bit more wholesome. it was like "just always be kind and don't do anything bad, and good things will happen to you!" sigh. i really wish he was right.
>They are 10 steps ahead in this case
well but im gonna be 10 steps ahead whenever i pass an old person on the sidewalk!

>>81897515
>thats the pic you took?
yeah! not for nothing its my favourite of all of the pictures i've taken. (and i've taken a lot)
>so its not like things get worse if you try
i guess so, i got nothing to lose and everything to gain after all.
>"i dont like writing, i like having written"
hm, thats a good quote. its the same for me too when it comes to a lot of things including cooking
>need to force myself to write
ah i need to force myself to do so many things honestly. it feels bad having to do that, i wish i had the motivation normalfags have. it kind of makes me question why even bother doing something if i have to force myself to
>cooking for yourself part is just practice
yeah i guess its that way.
>i used to read lot of manga
which ones? i used to read a lot of books as a kid but now i dont read much, mostly cause of my adhd. i also like writing in my journal, it helps dealing with the bad thoughts.
>do you feel like sometimes it makes you think too much?
oh definitely. almost everything makes me think too much lole. i dont dislike thinking about philosophy but sometimes it touches some dark subjects and worsens my mood
>fav album i should give a listen
i think perception, but hope is also a fantastic one
>eminem
used to listen to him all day when i was in high school along with NF. kinda makes me nostalgic nowdays.
>damn you have a really big music taste
what can i say i enjoy good sounds. i listen to music all day everyday
>about what you want to rap/sing?
wasnt really talking about lyrics, but more so notes. i guess if i had to talk about a topic in a song then it would be my struggle with depression. very original, i know
>never really learned to deal with heavy emotions
ahhh me too. i often get overwhelmed by emotions and it feels pretty awful. what are your daydreams about usually?
>i always feel some relief looking at the sky
i like it the most when its night. one day i wanna see a clear night sky with all the stars and galaxies. its my dream