big thanks to the looksmax suggestion poster on how to handle the wife. it got me into the mindset that doing unattractive stuff (poking the bit of fat on my gut, other things like that) is almost necessarily going to lead to some level of disrespect. so i started digging around for some of tighter clothes and they fit perfectly, tucking my shirts in, got my car cleaned inside and out, and booked an appointment to get the hair on the back of my neck lasered off. anyway, thanks for the new mindset. mires have been up which is good for the ego.

thanks to apple's new update, my vo2 max is now considered High has been for over a month. kinda sucks that it's due to an algorithm shift. i haven't been using the cpap but i did record myself for snoring the other night and there has been a drastic reduction.

went for my second bodyscan and it has me down 3 pounds but the distributions are also kinda f'd. don't regret buying the package but it's obvious that the thing isn't perfect. more importantly i averaged around 201 last week, really hoping to see below 200 before next Monday. 195 was the target from the sleep doc, but if i could get and stay under 200 throughout the holidays i'd be stoked.

also finished reading another book, and started another. slowly but surely getting through what's basically a decade long logjam.

goals this week are unfortunately the same from last week since i was burned out at work. expand my consulting practice. i also want to identify another useless certificate to get. i also want to continue writing out that meal prep guide as well as create an AI model for generating cover letters using my own writing style.

last week of November let's get it

ran a 5 mile race on the beach yesterday, it sucked but felt good to negate some of the damage from all the shore food. Also ran it in 43.5 minutes, which isn't a bad time at all for me, especially since my 5km intervals take me about 40 minutes. Got my vo2 max reading to 49.9, so its nice to see the cardio gains working. Might even do my saturday long run on the beach, it should be a bit more enjoyable.

Testing confirmed there was an extra chromosome and that led to the miscarriage. also learned that it was a girl. so there's that.

similar vein, sperm test came back and I have better numbers than I did three years ago. DNA fragmentation test showed a bit high but kind of in range (bit of cope) but this part of the test seemed less reliable than the rest and is an add-on. i'm going to put extra focus on that and take some vitamins since my lifestyle is pretty much in line with what i should be doing otherwise. just dont want to feel that way again.

interviewed last week and then heard back yesterday that they won't be moving forward with me. seemed like a longshot. Did a prerecorded interview for another company for a role that should fit me like a glove. Really hoping for that one to pan out and it looks like it might at least go to the next round. getting absolutely sick of this current job though.

this guy that's clearly trying to turn his life around asked me to spot him last week, that was pretty cool and i was grateful to do that.

Goals this week - 8 km long interval run, track every calorie going in my body (using AI because why not), lose at least another pound, continue not jacking off, try to finish reading for a cert, and get my workouts in despite these fucking shore weekends. trying to do a bodyscan but the Y is dragging their asses.

been mostly not using the cpap and sleeping okay. the increased cardio is helping with that, i think. gonna try recording my snoring tonight to see if that's still an issue.
hormone tests came back and i'm in the normal range, even if on the lower end but i'm nearly 40 and probably didn't take that test under the best circumstances. i'll try again in a few months but not overly concerned.
had an interview last week and thought i did pretty well. had a few questions pop up that i wasn't expecting but i think i handled them okay, wasn't entirely sure to make of it. i think i should get to the next round but i know why if i didn't.
today was just an obnoxiously shit day but i made it through and got my workout in first.
due date for baby trunks is 7 months from now, so assuming no surprises going to be making announcements soon. i wanna make this little peanut proud.
other than that, got a few potential consulting calls lined up, so that could be a few hundred bucks in the pocket.