>>60857124
that will be the best investment you've ever made probably. ignore the other comments you've gotten. you need a gym. to get good results you need to work with difficult dangerous weight on a barbell that will require a spotter and a proper cage, things you can't mimic at home without very large investments. the cardio machines will also be worth the price, as will the other machines and equipment, and time spent with other people committed to fitness and health. that is a pretty steep cost, perhaps look for cheaper alternatives, but you absolutely cannot get the same results with home workouts or dumbbells.

got more sleep. upset it's basically all happening during daylight hours right now, but it changed before, i can change it again. want to get back to day trading, that at least gave me a reason to be awake during normal hours. wasting so much of my day right now. gonna have my smoothie and go lift weights, that is going very well for me, looking fantastic.
goodnight sweetheart. want to love you and make you happy, but so much depends on you. love and respect yourself and you'll want to be better, look in the mirror and admire yourself the way i would, see yourself through my eyes for a moment and you'd refuse to do a lot of the things you're doing now. love you.