no luck in cards, the market, or love today. oh well. going to get some food, will probably nap after i eat, try to get a good workout tonight. and i guess dreams are going well, so it's not all terrible. not feeling great at the moment though, ngl.

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not very good at all. penelope has soured towards me so much. she keeps posting racist, crazy, and delusional things, hundreds of times a day, but she told me that i needed meds. at the costco everyone looked like a broken down husk of a person, it was hard to even look at people, made me worry about america. couldn't drive as fast as i wanted because of the traffic, having pretty bad luck in cards, down a lot on the market, dreams were dull and tedious. it could be worse i suppose, i'm looking incredible and doing great at the gym, but ya it's a bad day so far and i'm feeling discouraged. but thanks for the kind words and attention.

morning everyone. another trading week. very badly need it. got some good rest, nearly 5 hours of it, which is very good, want to get back to 1 sleep/ day and i made a little progress. didn't have very good dreams, but they weren't that bad either, and my dad was in them so that was a positive.

oil is up a good deal, futes down a bit, think i'm going to go with my plan to try and trade gush. perhaps sbet, which i chickened out of buying friday but might play today. individual stocks are a LOT riskier though. obviously had a rough night last night, said some things i probably should have held back, but it is what it is. was listening to my heart, which was troubled. i do love you babe, and one day you'll see i'm right in my ways, right for you.

gonna do some self-care before market opens, need a shower, want tea, be back soon.