>>509273807
I literally AM a fuckup
I've never had a job, didn't go to college, don't have a license or car, never leave my piece of shit house or even my bedroom because my parents are screaming at each other and dying and poor because of their own retardation which has fucked me over so hard I can't even describe it
I'm not stupid, I've done my own research on autism and the other disorders I've mentioned, I know the symptoms, I know my own behavior, I've talked to a therapist but that went fucking nowhere and they just tried to immediately put me on SSRIs without telling me they break your fucking dick forever (had to find a medical study MYSELF to figure that nigger shit out)
I've talked with a lot of diagnosed autistic people, and not only do I immediately click with them I recognize everything I understand about it and relate to everything they say about the struggles with their behavior and how they think in general which is identically to me, broadly speaking
I KNOW I have autism, I KNOW I have anxiety and OCD, and I KNOW I have ADHD because my brother takes fucking medication for it and I had to get permission in elementary school to twiddle with fucking wax or a stress ball just to focus on class and I know how I can't even make myself focus on things I want to do like games (I also struggled REALLY hard with reading books in school) and anything I DO manage to focus on I literally hyperfocus to the point of exhausting myself and then my interest in it just immediately disappears the next day
I'm not fucking stupid, I'm ill and need help my parents never gave me, they just hit me and yelled at me for not being normal and traumatized me with all the violence and abuse that went on in the house
The problem is getting an actual diagnosis for these things and getting real help feels fucking impossible and now orange nigger is taking away my healthcare I was using to even TRY to fix my fucked up broken self and I don't know where to go or what to do
4chan Search
2 results for "d24dbd01d04c066714aca48cccd17d7d"
>>713497076
The melee scene has been in steady decline for years now. Between this and all the constant bombardment of drama with the smash metoo bullshit which allowed a bunch of snakes to gain power within the community, it was practically inevitable that a brand-risk personality like mango would eventually be canceled over petty shit. And hopefully this is the nail in the coffin so that cancerous shithole of a community can finally die off. People always think they'll dread the day when something or someone they love finally dies, but in reality by the time it's finally over you're most just relieved to see your dementia-riddled grandparent kick the can. It's basically the same with melee. The game ran its course, had its golden era, it's renaissance, and now it's dying from within like an inoperable cancer.
I will say how ironic is it that the keystone figure of the community, aka the "melee will never die" guy, was betrayed by the same white knight clout-chasing snake that he called a friend and helped jumpstart his eceleb career when he had a fraction of mango's following. I'd feel sorry for him, but the reality is that he was complicit in letting the melee community rot to this point instead of using his influence to put some sense back into the community.
The melee scene has been in steady decline for years now. Between this and all the constant bombardment of drama with the smash metoo bullshit which allowed a bunch of snakes to gain power within the community, it was practically inevitable that a brand-risk personality like mango would eventually be canceled over petty shit. And hopefully this is the nail in the coffin so that cancerous shithole of a community can finally die off. People always think they'll dread the day when something or someone they love finally dies, but in reality by the time it's finally over you're most just relieved to see your dementia-riddled grandparent kick the can. It's basically the same with melee. The game ran its course, had its golden era, it's renaissance, and now it's dying from within like an inoperable cancer.
I will say how ironic is it that the keystone figure of the community, aka the "melee will never die" guy, was betrayed by the same white knight clout-chasing snake that he called a friend and helped jumpstart his eceleb career when he had a fraction of mango's following. I'd feel sorry for him, but the reality is that he was complicit in letting the melee community rot to this point instead of using his influence to put some sense back into the community.