>Elementary School Crush has a husband, works as a Vet, and has a side gig as being a twitch moderator for one of the bigger name Minecraft Youtubers. It's been so long since I talked to her I feel nothing but being genuinely glad her life turned out alright
>Crush I stalked when I was 17, went to the psyche ward once more, then two more times as an adult, transitioned and detransition, her last BF died in a tragic car accident, isn't doing too well. I'd apologize to her if I saw her but frankly I'm so regretful of that time period and her life sucks so much I think we'd both be better if we never spoke again
>Crush I had when I was 19 currently works at Pixar. I fucked up trying to kiss her but we honestly stayed Friends for a good few years after with me only trying to flirt a few more times than I should have, but the friend group we we're in was so irreversibly cut down the middle I don't know how many people even reached out to the other side. But her current BF looks similar to me if I was Blonde and we probably laughed the most genuinely with each other out of everyone on the list, so I still hold a bit too much of a candle for her.
I am 25 now. There's been a few more girls interested in me over the years, but I don't know how to take it past low level flirting and frankly I feel so hopeless and isolated in my own mind I don't think I want one anymore. Looking back all my crushes were pretty shallow, just a pretty girl laughing at my jokes every time, and I didn't know any of these girls as much as I want to know now and I didn't have the people skills to think to ask.

Horses are kind of the most unfuckable animal girl.
Like that's a cute girl, but a horse's main, ears, and tail are not the first thing I think of when I see a horse, more like their long, ridable backs, and shape. I don't see a horse girl and see an immedieate connection to me riding her, which would be fun and sexual. Like it would be sweet if she offered me piggy back ride, but she doesn't have any extra body parts of muscles that would let her gallop while I ride on her back. Not like a Kangaroo girl or something where you could realistic put your face in her pouch you know?
Like I'm not huge into fur, so for me an animal girl's whole draw is how her animal instincts affect her as a person so a Catgirl is just aight, but the DEEP seated instincts that make her want to scratch, lick herself, sleep, be independent, be clingy, be fickle. THAT'S Attractive, and I just don't see any of that in horse girls.
I don't even see any humanity in horses. Their eyes are one of the most soulless things in the animal kingdom, about on par with a fly's. Absolute no humanity behind them. Maybe their ancestors had souls and us as humans bred it out of them, but we've turned them into pure tools.
Like guys I watched like the first five seasons of my little pony and I never once wanted to fuck one of them, despite the billion times Applejack impressed me. It wasn't until the human high school AU did I want to fuck em and they had no tails, ears, and just looked like Bratz dolls. Horse girls just ain't for me.