I have this recurring mahjong dream where I have an ankou of haku in my hand. At some point I draw the fourth haku, but I don't kan it, keeping it instead, and suddenly I draw the fifth haku. It seems weird at first, but I decide to keep it and then I draw like a regular tile and suddenly there's another haku. I usually either wake up or my dream changes before I complete an entirely white hand. I had this dream like three times now.

>save pictures from imageborards cataloged by year
>suddenly realize there's a 2026 folder next to 2025
>I've been jumping between 2025 and 2026, because I quite honestly can't tell what year we have right now without checking it
It's only gonna get worse, isn't it?

Why can't there be an eroge but it's mahjong and not really an eroge but real life and there's this girl and I play mahjong with her and we browse /mjg/ together and laugh

I'm not sure I even like this game anymore, but I keep coming back to it. I just can't figure out why I find it so appealing. Is it because of the adrenaline rush whenever I'm in tenpai? I just need to get my fix? The more valuable the hand, the more alive I feel, even though at the end of the day I'm just wasting time for some imaginary points that will disappear on the inevitable end of service.
I kinda understand why the Nipponese derived the verb テンパる to describe not only being in tenpai, but also being extremely excited, because I can also feel this excitement, but I kinda wish I never felt it in the first place, since now I became a slave to these weird Chinese tiles.