>>22803701
I feel so sorry for you. Nobody would ever even try to take one step in the direction of trying to justify and condone Jewish circumcision unless they were in a deep pit of despair and they truly believed that was the best option for them. Your miserable existence forcing yourself to roleplay and pretend you believe in Christ is the only possibility you can imagine for yourself. That is dark, that is bleak, and I am so very sorry you are going through that. I hope you make it out one day buddy. Nobody deserves to have to live like that