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im sorry i didnt see this post a lot was going on
>perhaps the only approval you got were people telling you how intelligent you are or pointing out how good your performance was in school
i wasnt like this
i used to be in special education. my mom told me she thought i was incapable of going to college. I was a really bad student. Thats why i just want to be proud of myself for getting into this school.
>you need to get a more firm sense of who you are, outside of trying to appeal to other people,
i dont really have a sense of self though. Can i really be expected to? I dont know who i am. I know what i want to be. I know how to improve myself, but i dont know who i am. I just want to be happy. Depression in my teens made me numb about myself.