Anyone else having the urge to travel yet get random ass anxieties that stops you from going?

I have my suitcase packed, a vague plan, yet keep postponing to press the buy button.
I dont know what I am so scared about

>>2793939 (OP)
The only thing that stops me is this vague notion that I need to save for retirement but I’m starting to let that go. I’m 34 years old and a complete outcast from society. Nothing is just going to magically materialize in terms of social life or romantic interest and since I do nothing to get those things and have no desire to do so it’s not gonna happen. So why am I not traveling?

I couldn’t tell you

I used to but I forced myself to do it. Now I don't get serious anxiety, just shit like "oh did I water my pot plant" on the plane ride over that I forget about when I get there.

I actually have no problem planning, booking, flying, and arriving. The feeling of dread doesn't kick in until after I've checked in at the hotel and enter my room. Suddenly, my brain is thinking "What the fuck am I doing here? What the fuck am I even gonna do?"

>>2794854
Sleep, eat and move around the map nooticing things. Maybe some drinking or smoking. That all a nigga need

>>2793939 (OP)
I had a short list of places i wanted to see, then i saw them, and now im unmotivated. It stinks.
So i wanna travel but i have no drive to go anywhere in particular so i dont go anywhere

>>2794626
Op here
I forced myself as well
26 hours and still not reached my destination almost no sleep
I am glad i came out if my bubble

Yeah I stress myself out with all the planning of getting hotels and wondering if I will enjoy them or not and sometimes feeling uncomfortable in the sense of not having my own comfortable space to eat and sleep. Maybe i need to just travel and stay in air bnbs for at least a week so I can have more of my own space and safe fortress

>>2794925
Good man. You'll get there and you'll have a blast.

>>2793939 (OP)
No, not at all.
You're a pathetic limpwristed faggot also. The world would be better off if you stayed inside at all times.

>>2794933
Ok turbochad

>>2794944
NTA but also cartoons are for children
FYSA

>>2794933

>>2793939 (OP)
I usually get anxieties around a week before my first day. The cause of my anxieties are mainly the fear of never going back to my home/seeing the people in my circle, etc.
When I first did my solo trip to South America years ago, I took a picture of a sunset. I sent it to my mom & it reminded me how I'm thousands of miles away from her, yet we both look at the same sun. I also remembered not finishing a game before the trip. During the trip, I always had a dreaded thought that is someone were to ever point a gun at me, I won't be able to see my mom and finish that game anymore. It's always the fear of dying that gives me the most travel anxiety.
It's weird that for me, the anxiety actually goes away when I arrive at my destination. I realize that I'm surrounded by humans where we're only separated by language but live completely normal & boring lives. I book hotels & private tours from reputable agencies since it acts as a safety net. While a perfect trip is never guaranteed, shit can happen, and that's part of traveling.

>>2793939 (OP)
yes, mostly because of the fear of getting scammed or worse....
seems like the whole world is mostly hostile towards travellers now

>>2794987
Yeah I already knew that beleive it or not, whats the rest of your life like Mr Alpha?
Must be nice traveling abroad with no worries and just walking into the club and not having to wait in line to get a drink and then slap whatever girl you wants ass

>>2793939 (OP)
yes. I have 2 weeks off in august everything is ready to go and I just can't bring myself to book something. I have real challenges like chronic illness but it really isn't that bad. Another challenge is i'm scurred of sticking out like a sore thumb because I'm so white (like milky white) but can only afford places like mexico. And this is coming from a guy who spent 90 days living in a village in africa as the only white guy. Idk what happened to me.

>>2793939 (OP)
>t random ass anxieties
My ass is rarely anxious about anything

I wouldn't say my fear is of travel necessarily, but having lots of money tied up in something that's uncertain. I'm very neurotic when it comes to money- if I buy the wrong size of a $30 shirt, and I cancel my order, that $30 is in the back of my mind until it's resolved and cleared off my accounts. Which is a good thing, in a way, but it makes commiting to international travel in advance pretty difficult. If I wanted to book a trip, I'd have to do it months in advance well beyond chargeback term limits. Putting money down and trusting that my flight, hotel, rental car, and everything else will all fall into place with basically no recourse if they don't is pretty hard for me.