>>212401549Sorry I may have gave the impression I was SA'd which I wasn't, just physical and lots of neglect and emotional abuse. Like I recall threatening to stab one of my parents to death if they didn't leave me alone and I've never experienced anything like the level of fear I went through when I was younger.
I don't want to give off the impression I am a violent person I am not at all and known as very calm and relaxed at work, like I've worked with so many people who are horrible to those under them and I've just never seen the point. The situation was just horrific.
No but I suspect it would be helpful just trying to get to the point where I can speak to someone. I think some of it is just genetic though and my personality doesn't really let me move on easily.
My ex was from an extremely fucked up elite family, got raped by multiple people as a young child and definitely had it much worse but she seemed less bothered by it all than me.
I'm in UK which is probably the easiest place to buy one. Lots of middle or upper middle class normies actually do it here.