>>212692032you'll find your spirit again in nature. maybe try south east asia, or a semi-decent part of south america. somewhere where your money can stretch out.
i've been stuck in before, fear builds up, it's natural. force yourself out and make a new routine to rehabilitate yourself. go out for a walk every day for 15 minutes at first, then longer and longer.
go to the same shop/cafe anything small and simple and go regularly so it starts to feel familiar and alright.
chat briefly with cashiers, nice weather, how much is this and so on. helps to warm you up.
honestly whenever I found myself nervous about the next trip, I'd feel fine the moment I was on the jouney, head goes into survival mode and focuses on the mission. airport, accommodation, that kind of thing.
you need a fresh place, I do too.