>>213444751holy shit are you me bro? i think and feel exactly the same, at first i only felt admiration but now i've formed a parasocial relationship with her, she's the most beautiful woman i've ever seen in my entire life and i can't feel attraction to anyone else, it pained like hell when i had to accept she's dating ben ellis and he most likely took her virginity, he gets to enjoy her body and her love while people like us only get to dream of her.
i suggest you read the last interview she gave to cosmopolitan, it made me realize she's not as perfect and we don't have everything in common, it definetly helped me a bit in taming the obsessive feelings even if for a little while