>>213717904
The hardest part, by far, is staying sober.
Back when I was kind of bad I would binge, go through 2-3 days of hellish tremors, insomnia, and then nightmares and sweat-soaked panic awakenings when I actually managed to sleep for 20 minutes. Days when I was so wobbly and weak I could barely walk down the stairs like an elderly man. But at the same time it felt kind of good because I knew I was paying the price for my actions and "getting better."
I'm extremely glad to be out of that cycle, for now at least. Taking up exercise has worked for me.