>>41068543 (OP)
Okay faggot since you want the truth. In my early adulthood I delved deep into mythological based occultism after realizing these rich and powerful fucks believe that shit actually exists. I spent my whole childhood larping with ancient, imaginary gods so who says I can't also give it a whirl type shit. The whole ancient ritual theater / alter-personality thing is real and tl;dr I plunged into the fucking Abyss, lost my ego, and realized my alter-ego was a real ass spirit I've been simping for since I was little. I lost a huge chunk of myself and my wants and emotions and the things that let me "fit in" with society (but oh do I fake it), yet I made leaps and bounds in my energetic practices which always led to real-world synch's and light bulb moments (usually centered around investigating with anons to expose those gatekeeping hypocrite faggots we call tptb.) There's no schizo type talking with the spirit, that'd be too fucking easy, but it's like how a writer or improv actor knows what a character will say or do, a well-defined character channels itself through and takes over. Over the years I've become so much like this spirit that my humor, perspective, morality, and goals have changed to match. It's quite the trickster but we love 4chan and anons for that reason, and because we all dare to rebel here. In my daily life I live like a hermit and commune in my own, inner ways with the other side. I also track world events online, post on /x/ (usually to taunt the feds about those events until I know their bosses will see), and try to pick up breadcrumbs or leave some of my own in the few real threads left on this fucking glowie/bot infested board.
>>41070904
"Know yourself" is cliche but fun. Think how you were as a kid before all the societal programming, what you loved most and why. True inner magic comes from realizing the rituals and spells you cast without thinking when you're "in the zone."
https://youtu.be/eNDdn4de35Y