Thread 41268367

I just turned 28, I've been depressed for several weeks and problems are piling up. I feel like bad news keeps coming one after another right now. I don't know if I'm burning bad karma or what's going on, but every day I hope I've hit rock bottom so I can start climbing back up, but no.

Every day, unfortunate events occur, absurd situations. The most "amusing" one recently: I tripped over a barrier in the middle of the street, which tore my pants, and I ended up with my butt in underwear exposed in front of people (yes, really). Had to walk back home like that. And so on, other stuff, every day. It's all so tiresome.

I'm depressed, I have memory problems, I'm 28 years old and stuck in a toxic job that I can't leave because I'm still studying, I have bad addictions and mental issues, my mother has health problems and is going to the hospital, I only have one friend that I see from time to time every two months, I have social anxiety... And tonight, my relationship of over a year and a half just ended. I feel worn out and empty. I thought she was the one. I was her first. I'm getting old and my heart is sclerosint. It's going to get harder and harder to find my sweetheart. All my relationships fail.

I welcome advice and prayers... Tell me it's going to be okay, anon...

>>41268367 (OP)
No, it's not gonna be okay, it's terrible. I would feel sorry for you OP, but have grew apathetic to the condition of human suffering.

Look if you have a bad element full of bad aura and destroy it

>>41268367 (OP)

I got no advice for you, but I am listening ... you asking tells me you still want to continue, right? :)

>>41268367 (OP)
we all gonna make it bruv, if not then at least we are dead and cannot worry about not having made it.

but until then, there are chances everyday.
start to work out, i know it sounds stupid and cliche, but everybody should do it, you can do it at home without any equipment its easy, and always makes me feel better.

ask yourself which feelings you do not allow yourself to feel.

there are plenty of viewpoints to consider, it is never over. but you might have to do something that is uncomfortable for the current you to save future you.

but i believe in you, we are all human with potential.

>>41268367 (OP)
Prayed for you. I hope you and your mother's health improves and your path becomes clear. Follow the light.

You tore your pants and your bussy was exposed? Should have been at an lgbt parade then they'd bum you rotten thinking you were flirting. Getting sodomised until your eyes roll to the back of your head, and your prolapsed caterpillar pulsing and twitching, and oozing white goo would leave you satisfied with absolutely zero mental illnesses just pure satisfaction.

>>41268367 (OP)
If you consider karma then people who have beautiful ends of the lives must go through some suffering or do great deeds. Perhaps this path is balancing out the blessings you’ll receive in the second half of your life.

Spongebob

>>41268367 (OP)
Yah why don't mods allow you to post unless you wait 300 seconds? Are they faggots trying to control the flow of information? That won't end well for you

>>41268581
Thanks a lot anon..

>>41268625
I hope so because my childhood and first half of life were traumatic to say the least lol. Never knew my father, abandoned by my family, grew up in foster care, etc. Sigh...

>>41268367 (OP)
Focus and move forward. The physical universe and the phenomenon within it are not as they appear to be. Focus and move forward and you can reveal the mechanism in operation between consciousness and apparent physical material. Learn all you can. This physical life is not permanent no matter what you do. Do not suffer the loss of what you desire. Everything is in constant transition. Your consciousness is so much more than the physical material world of a single lifetime. Endure this while seeking to learn.. the universe will provide you with experiences

Embrace a spirit of ambition and know that you will have opportunity to create your own desired conditions.. and, as all things are, even they will be temporary within the physical material world. Your own conscious however will persist far beyond your current experience and will carry the memory effectively forever..

>>41268367 (OP)
And to top it all off: YWNBAW. Can you imagine?

>Those replies.
This sure is not helpful. Here OP, take a look at this: https://pastebin.com/NZ17CvP0 Maybe adopting a constructive outlook and philosophy of life, and understanding your own existence and experience can help. It was made by an Oneirosophy enthusiast for preservation, and i found it immensely useful and life changing overall.
Also, only advice of worth:
>Keep going forward.

>>41268444
might as well try this. If you can't figure it out, embrace the suffering like an old friend.

>>41268367 (OP)
I believe in you.

You might be gooning too much.

>>41268367 (OP)
>heartbreak and illness
standard samsara experience, nothing special about it

>>41269951
How can this be the cause? Would it really help to stop?

It’s gonna be okay anon. I went through this exact situation for 2-3ish years, and what helped was seeking God and hours kingdom. Feed your mind his word and consider Matthew 6:22-23.

>>41268367 (OP)
>my mother has health problems
what problems?

>>41268367 (OP)
I'm worse off than you in many ways but handling it much better. It is cliche but if you want my personal advice, stop looking outward for fulfillment and peace and start looking inward. I'm sorry about your mom but she will die, all our parents will and so will we. Nothing can change that, we have to develop the psyche to endure, understand and accept the suffering and make the most of the happiness we get to have while we're here. You must practice this and work hard to develop the mental strength to handle these things, imo it's your duty as a man to do so

>>41268367 (OP)
Things will get better friend. This much I know. They may get worse before then but they will. Please try and work on your addictions though. That’s not something to take lightly.

Lock in

>>41268367 (OP)
Lol fag

>>41268367 (OP)
inside your head are a bully and a victim. dont let the little guy drive when there's problems. we have both for a reason

Go for walks and cut out excess sugar
No I'm fucking serious
Try it and you'll see the difference

>>41271013
How can spilling your life creative energies just for pleasure cause bad life outcomes?

>>41268367 (OP)
I also recently turned 28. Life is strange and not very easy. But I just walk. That’s what I do now, I just walk whenever and wherever.

>>41270056
this
>>41268367 (OP)
Right in this moment the world is not causing you suffering, you are holding onto suffering the world has caused you. Building an egotistical narrative around it. Do you understand? I've noticed that for some this can be a difficult thing to accept, so sit with it.