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I'm glad I check Misaki threads sometimes. The distorted sense of self, dissociation and the way we experience emotions is really fucked up. Some of it is more severe than it sounds like when you read the symptom. I have a particularly strong case of BPD but if you want to know for example we don't empathize with different versions of ourselves, so if I have a memory that isn't from the immediate past it doesn't feel like it was mine it feels like it was another version of me that isn't myself. It's like the only me that I can recognize is the me of this moment and it makes it really hard to work towards future goals because the future doesn't sound like it'll happen to me, it's like I know the future is there but my emotions won't process it, it simply doesn't exist for me for all intents and purposes. The distorted sense of self feels a bit like Rei from Evangelion I guess. Like there's other versions of me that aren't myself, and I can't really see what being myself means. Like my identity is vague and melting.
So yeah a lot of these are way more specific/severe than they sound like when you read it.
