>>81874438
i havent done anything this week, still dont have a job. i need to cut my hair, probably shave my head with a buzz cut. need to shave too. i havent done either in... i dunno, maybe 4 or 5 or 6 months. however, i have heard back from this english school job in japan i applied to and they invited me for a zoom interview which sounds pretty cool but ive heard from other people online that theyre a black company that abuses their workers and scams them out of benefits and stuff. that worries me, but i got rejected from the other schools i applied to. ive never had a job before in the first place though, maybe i should get a job. i planned to get a part time security job back in February or march or something but it never came to fruition, i think maybe i should just get an easy job first to ease myself back into society and working life.
>>81874764
>I'm going to buy some whiskey and play some elder scrolls online after work
thats really what lifes all about
>>81874594
>and force myself to try new things all
DO NOT keep putting stuff off for tomorrow or hyperfixate on one specific plan in your head, this is how i killed like 8 months
>>81874438
>What has got you down..or up? What do you have planned today?
I'm going to be honest, I don't feel good. I don't tell that to other people because they don't care, when I told my parents one year ago I really wanted to kill myself they called me selfish and yelled at me and said I was threatening them. I guess that's simply how it is, accepting things for how they are. My options in life feel limited, I'm medically disqualified from the military due to a chronic skin disease I have. Construction trades would definitely exacerbate my condition, considering I have red spots and cracked skin just from doing nothing and staying out of the elements at home. So I can't imagine being covered in dust and grime and exposed to chemicals and stuff. And I got a useless (comms) online degree so no more school for now.Hit word limit
