What's eating ya?

Every Palestinian I've personally met is the nicest salt of the earth type person compared to people from the other country, who are so personally malignant it's astounding

I have no idea how you could meet the average person from either side and not come up with the good guys and bad guys being totally opposite of what you're supposed to believe

>>33207048 (OP)
Been sobbing like a baby all day yesterday.
Feeling better right now but I feel like I'm on the edge of another anxiety attack and it all could go south any second. Fuck

>>33207048 (OP)
Having to hear about the western world constantly obsess over us (Israel). Even on this goddamn thread I see the Palestine whiners. It's insane. Get a fucking hobby

>>33207048 (OP)
probably gonna make a rant post about it to bitch, but i'm still in love with my ex

my boyfriend doesn't know (im a great girlfriend) but i just want my forever back

>>33207223
>but i just want my forever back

stfu

>>33207227
my boyfriend barely cares about me dw

>>33207048 (OP)
IM IN LOVE

>>33207203
Yeah, the world hates Jews. You see it clearer when you’re outside Israel. Doesn’t matter how logical you are, how many maps or facts you bring, none of it lands. They’ve already decided. It’s not about peace offers or nuance, it’s about having a villain they can feel righteous hating. I used to argue too. Thought I could reason people out of it. You just end up exhausted and they stay smug. My advice is to just ignore it.

I just ERPed with someone on World of Warcraft and it turned out to be my real life friend's sister

And now we're both unsure what to do here

Considering she has a boyfriend and I have a girlfriend

And it's like...did we just cheat?

>>33207246
Where are you from?

>>33207259
No, RP is not cheating, you're literally just playing Barbie dolls online.

>>33207266
In the States. Probably gonna make aliyah eventually

I'm pretending to do my job. I WFH for a software developer company, I spend a lot of time at the gym or sleeping. I do everything I'm asked to, it's just that I don't really have much initiative, especially since I got told off for asking too many questions.

>>33207277
Please come to Israel and make many Ashkenazi children

it's over.

It kinda was a miserable life and then my mom died.

I kinda want to die just to see her again.

>>33211477
Is that what she'd want for you?

>>33207048 (OP)
My fucking roommate that I despise threw away my bar of soap and I just generally hate them so much for many reasons. I need to get even

My dad passed away on Monday. I haven't been able to deal with him being gone.

Me and my mom miss him dearly, these past few days have been the hardest of my entire life, I wish he was still here.

>>33207244
ME TOO

>>33207048 (OP)
Delusions about my ex boyfriend who is my first love contacting me again it has been a month and I still want only him >>33207223
Why not just dump your boyfriend love should be sacred

I don't want a reply. But I want to scream to the world, "Give me ONE good reason not to neck myself tomorrow".

Pales(((stein)))e

>>33207048 (OP)
I wish my grandma would die as soon as possible
I pray God or anything at this point kills her
I'm so, so tired of taking care of her, 3 years of my life during arguably the most important time of my life, my mid twenties are fucking gone and the time now is moving faster and faster
I turn 28 this year and I can't fathom doing this shit and wasting more of my time and freedom so she can be more comfortable
I just wish she was dead, if I have to do this shit for even a few more months, I will either kill her or kill myself, or both.
God forbid she lives another few years, I will have left by then
I fucking hate my family for trapping me in this hellish existence, expecting me to sacrifice my adult years to take care of a completely ungrateful, combative bitch. All the while receiving ZERO support, financially, emotionally or otherwise.

I'm planning exit strategies should she continue to live, I WILL NOT LIVE THIS WAY
I WILL NOT burn any more of my adulthood
Sometimes your family really is your worst enemy

>>33212294

Just escape from it already, my dude. Get out and don't look back.

>>33207048 (OP)
anxiety,low iq,being extremely skinny

I don’t know, how I feel, or rather, why I feel this way. I know I feel somewhat anxious, I believe I worry, about many things, about my future, my day to day, about the feeling of living my life in a sort of automatic way, each day the same as tomorrow. I just don’t know what to do, nobody seems to know, how to live, and that is somewhat scary. Me, I just overthink and worry, I feel a sense of urgency, almost every day, like I have to do something, or like I have to do many things, why?, am I afraid that if I don’t do something now, if I don’t step into the light I will regret it?, like I regret not going out more in high school?, not asking girls out?, not sticking to a hobby?, or learning a skill?, probably that. That is the feeling of urgency, or what causes it, the voice in my head saying “live, do something”, and I should. Other big thing is the pessimistic vision that I have of my own future, and sometimes of life, even though I don’t see life as a complete struggle, or as complete suffering, I do see it more as work, and sometimes as meaningless work. I believe many people my age feel this way, the feeling that we got a bad deal, but still why is this?, maybe they are ideas of grandiosity, that I deserved better maybe, but why?, don’t I have it good?, house, family, health?, why is there a fear of getting a job, working for eight or more hours daily, for forty years?, hasn’t life always been somewhat like this?. But maybe is not the work itself what makes me feel uneasy about the future, maybe it is the routine, the feeling that time will pass much longer once I get into the workforce, the feeling like I got sucked into the system. Then again, what is the alternative?, being a musician?, a youtuber?, being rich and having all the free time?, I wouldn’t really know, there are musicians who kill themselves, actors, or I could be coping, like I don’t know. I guess I can always go to live off the grid, that’s an option.

>>33207048 (OP)
how am i real life good luck chuck? every girl I date briefly gets asked out by a guy she has been holding out for and i get dumped.., generally learning i am dumped when I am told off for not respecting that she has a BF. Nigro we were on a date last week, I didnt know i was dumped untill now.
it like 5 in a row now.

I just graduated from HS and I'm worried about my diploma. I've dedicated the last 4 years of my life to that stupid fucking place and I just wanna be down with it. But on the last day I received my transcript with one credit needed and a graduation date listed this month. People receive their diplomas in the mail but that's in two weeks from now. I heard that after some calls I apparently DID graduate, but I'm fucking terrified. I know that I've got my whole life ahead of me but I'd rather quit life than have to go back.

>>33217157
It's because society values material success more than personal success. Whatever anyone else tells you, work to live NEVER live to work. To make your life feel meaningful even in a job, do something that fulfills you or helps you towards something that WILL. I won't go to college after the summer so I'm feeling anxious about productivity too.

Looking back, I've literally had girls throw themselves at me but I still didn't do anything because I'm a social coward and autist who knows nothing about initiating and maintaining human connections plus they never felt real at the time because I always assume I'm not that wantable in the first place. I mean I guess I'm thankful for the experience of being wanted but looking back the fact that I still didn't do anything when I could've been in relationships makes me loathe myself. Hindsight is one hell of a painful 20/20.

> be me
> find amazing person
> they like me too
> they are married
> I ask them to be with me
> they tell me to find someone else
> they stay married and start detaching from me
> they say they don’t love me but show me they do
> in every way but big one
> they are stupid
> I am stupider for being sad about it

>>33217182
If you graduated on the system and they told you that via call, then you're fine, probably just some computer fuck up. Don't worry too much about it.

If you don't get your diploma in the mail then call again and try to organise it being sent out, but from what you've said, you should get it.

i die soon, it’s okay

I feel like shit and I can't even tell why anymore.

>>33211653
throw away his soap

I told you that when people get to know me, they abandon me. You left, too.

But you’re the first one who has tried to come back.

Bruh, she's self absorbed and narcissistic
Just like my ex
I'm not even mad
I'm just glad I recognized the situation before I got in too deep

>>33207048 (OP)
I feel slightly bad for not asking any of my friends if they want to work with me on my startup idea
It can be so lonely working alone

>>33217267
My ex was like that I still liked him a lot

genetics is fake and gay. its all descended from eugenics, which is just a scientism explanation for monarchy. every thing we "genetically modify" only becomes worse and has resulted in more pain and suffering.

i'm tried of people seeing the obvious that almost everything told to us are lies, but agree with eugenics/genetics because it gives them a superiority complex.

i'm never gonna get ahead in life. all i can hope for is the 1 in 10 trillion chance i wain the lottery, so i can buy a house, and maybe convince a young dumb girl to marry me.

>>33217519
I just wanna win the lotto and get a house.

Maybe I'll get a lady to take home, maybe I'll just bury myself in my hobbies but I will be sure I'm left the fuck alone by folk who can't accept they're need help

the children of divorced narcissists, always seeking approval, never getting it, and never allowing themself to be happy, afraid of having it taken away.

Where do I begin?
>M46, Indian, very skinny, balding
>no kids, no wife, no gf
>conflict avoidant to the point of being a total pussy
>Usual "friends" often casually make fun of me
>No one joins in anything I want to do
>multiple groups I've been in for years just see me as a familiar tag-along
>They'll never see me as one of them
>Burnt the fuck out at my job
>Have job but can't afford house in ultra HCOL area
>Too much of a pussy to just move out and go somewhere else

I'm just stuck.

>>33217198
Are you me? The regret of not acting hurts so much
>Skinny, balding, old
>I don't want myself, can't understand why anyone would want me
>When they do, brain short circuits and I assume I'm being punked

>>33217500
I went to a concert for the first time in my life.
It was loud. My ears still hurt. I forgot the earplugs at home and just toughed it out. It's good anyway, people always say my voice is too quiet. Maybe this will make me talk louder.
Maybe they think my voice is too quiet because they go to concerts.

But really, I hate pretending to be human. I don't want to do this anymore.
When do I get to see my home planet?
When do I get to meet my people?
How long do I have to keep doing these things and pretending?

>>33217628
Reply not intended.

>>33207048 (OP)
I am fucking tired of dealing with my mom every day. She is genuinely the worst person I've ever met in my entire life and I'm not just saying that lightly
she is a chronic drinker and turns into a terrible person when drunk, she does literally nothing all day except for day drink, smoke, sleep (taking naps at something like fucking 3 pm) and doomscroll on her phone. A lot of the time she is just completely emotionally avoidant and detached and doesnt talk or engage with anybody. On rare occasions she’s normal though. The other side of her is the side where she is a complete asshole for no reason. For context me and my dad are very right wing (my dad is the one who told me about the jews, great replacement theory and also about general schizo shit, esoteric stuff and conspiracies that i now believe in) meanwhile my mom is a leftist who is in a left wing echo chamber of reddit and also has a very left wing facebook reels and tiktok feed. Even though I never bring political stuff up to my mom, late at night after several drinks she always brings up politics and starts fights about it, even if i just go into my room and am avoidant she will keep pestering me about whatever (lately its been the LA riots and she glazes and is pro immigration for some reason) and since she’s drunk its very easy to prove her wrong and beat her in an argument, but she gets super mad and angry whenever you dont agree with her. This has turned into violence sometimes, she doesn't hit me and hasn't in my memory but she is violent. like yesterday me and my dad were up at midnight watching the replay of the stanley cup hockey game of the oilers vs panthers and she constantly argued with me and my dad. She was losing the argument and hit my dad and was screaming in my face, my dad cant punch back doe because he’s way stronger and can fucking kill her even if he goes easy. Two days ago she said she hopes I get beat up by someone at school because I’m a “white supremacist”

>>33217653
continued
(even though im taller and bigger than 90% of people in my grade lmao) because she brought up tthe LA riots and I said wasnt in favor of immigration one time when I was 11 or so over summer break she tried to kill me, my dad, and my brother but thats a longer story. I’ve asked my dad why he cant just divorce her because we’ve both agreed she’s gone insane and I also dont like seeing her everyday and he says he’s scared that if he does he’ll lose the house, car, me, my brother, and our dog to my mom because the divorce courts are rigged for women, even if theyre unhinged like my mom. Im underage (14) so i cant move out or anything. i dont like dealing with this on a consistent basis its mentally exhausting

GIMME A HAND, BROS!

So long story short, long term girlfriend is getting ready to leave me, 95% Sure of it, she's showing all signs that she's done with me

How do I mentally prep for this shitstorm that's about to happen?

We share all the same friends

Our families are friends

We work in the same building

We live together

It's coming, I can feel it, how do I handle it? How would YOU prep for it?

My last job genuinely soured the concept of friends man. I really should listen to my family when they tell you to not build friendships with coworkers because a lot of people I thought would stick by me just kinda turned around on me when I fought back against someone who made me feel like shit.

I don’t understand how different I feel now.

I can clearly see the necessary balance for boundaries and professionalism, along with maintaining an active appropriate relationship.

I don’t feel any interest in anything remotely childish or undeveloped for my age range.

I accepted a job offer that I don’t feel established in, and that lack of security is really frustrating.

I hate the experience of someone assuming they know more than me.

I can’t sleep.

Could you just lay with me? I don’t want to experience having sex with you again. I don’t want to be held captive in that hormonal spiral again. But I wish I wasn’t alone right now. I miss you.

>>33217733
Kill her

That everything is so unfair in this world. My sister is a person without values, and that's why she has a better life than me. I'm a good person and cool, just a little isolated, for some reason life mocks me, doesn't want to give me normal real friends

I will never be normal

>>33217986
>My sister is a person without values, and that's why she has a better life than me. I'm a good person and cool, just a little isolated

>>33217997
I feel so bad that I have been medically choking with this hormonal problem for years and doctors have been uninterested in finding out why?
And now I have a miracle drug that has let me throw up the water in my lungs.
I can breathe. I can run with ease.
I used to think people that did exercise were severe masochists. How can you do that? I'd go do groceries and be too tired to put them away. Now I can do the things. So I WILL DO ALL THE THINGS.

>>33217997
>>33218143
Oops, didn't mean to reply.

>>33217478
They are fun, but not worth trying to date
They're just selfish people

>>33207048 (OP)
accidentally deleted old chats with ex

>tfw sad
>tfw it’s for the best

>>33217980
The fact you can reflect on what created you problems in the past and are trying to avoid them is a big step in the right direction
Remember that the hardest thing in life is maintaining your life
It's not about trying to move up as quickly as possible
The brightest candles burn out the fastest

>>33207048 (OP)
I feel disconnected from the real world and I'm lonely for it. It's hard to talk about people in day to day aside from trite pleasantries and vague observations, and aside from the connections I made in high school I've "written over" most of my life from college. I've begun just treating this place and to some extent this board as a hangout place. I mean sure I can function, but at times I feel like I'm barely walking the same earth that others inhabit. I enjoy talking to people more (and women) from this site than anywhere else.

Im tired of my noisy annoying neighbors playing their music stfu fucks people are trying to fucking sleep ffs

>>33217594
Start researching military tech, play War Thunder and become a sperg, better to be seen as a menace than nothing.

Im probably going to breakup with my gf because she has slept with 20 different dudes. It just sucks because shes been great, but 20 lmao. Can't get over it.

>>33218633
Yikes, thats fucked up

>>33217980
You know you still want to fuck them

>>33218633
Good job, you'd just end up with a person that's never satisfied with anything or anyone

>>33218716
speaking from experience?

>>33217500
The ancients were aware of heredity and thought it was a serious problem much much earlier than modern science ever became aware of genes. Plato was literally obsessed with breeding and devised an entire eugenics program in the republic (usually ignored by liberal academics).
Also what are you talking about, no one wants to discuss genetics and eugnenics in the 21st century because it's 'impolite'

>>33217980

people missing people ITT REACH OUT SAY HELLO MAYBE THEY MISS YOU TOO worst case they ignore your messages and make you feel worthless but is that actually worse?

The laying sounds nice, though.

>>33218716
Or more likely she knows what she doesn’t want and more likely than not has experience to keep a relationship strong.

You want women who are good at sex? They need to have practiced.

And you can’t say shit you dumb fucking cunt if you can’t get a girl off and know when she’s faking.

Eat some pussy good or you don’t deserve her.

PSA: Please don't be a bitch to cashier's at supermarkets like the cunt in front of me who threw a fit like a child over something the cashier had no control over.
Shit like this drives me nuts

>>33218459
Thank you. I’ve been trying to just keep steady. Truthfully, the new job is way less responsibility, just requires relocating.

Thanks for your response. It helped.

Six (6) fucking years. This is pathetic.

>>33219291
It is what it is my nigga

>>33219298
Aw shit

>>33219303
Either way, grats or sorry that happened, I’ll pour out a little bit of my cig for ya

>>33218784
all illnesses are blamed on genetics, when most of them are based on us medling with nature. most policy is based on the elites wanting to slowly kill off and neuter the "useless eaters", the food is poison because of gene manipulation to kill the lower stock people, so is the water, the air, the medicine. our modern western society is based on the idea that the elites are the superior genetics, and its too impolite to kill everyone off blatantly, so they have to do it slowly.

but the fact that people don't talk about it openly is your issue?

eugenics, technocracy, etc are all people pretending they're gods.

>>33219309
Thanks. I miss smoking bro

>>33219291
Buck up my little buckaroo, the ride only gets worse.

>>33219379
Good shit quitting bud, that’s fuckin massive, proud of you. I’m just starting to cut down, gimme some of your willpower lol

>>33219384
Not if I actually move on.

>>33219396
Going to the gym helps bro, even though I've stopped. Makes you more motivated to work on your body. But the withdrawals are still a pain in the ass.

>>33219412
Just started doing that myself. Health and looks never worked for me but training for fighting does. Fuck it feels good. I might try those nic patches after I fully stop smoking. How long you been clean?

>>33219416
Only 2 months. I have a bad habit of quitting and then picking it back up. I got back into it from vaping with my coworkers, showing me all these new flavors they have out now. It stuck for about 4 months, until my lungs started to feel like shit.

I feel like I might be in love with my female friend. We have really good banter all the time and I feel so at ease when im around her. She and I are on the same wavelength in a lot of ways. Maybe it's intense platonic love, I don't even really think of her in a sexual way. I just feel like she *gets* me in a way no one else does. Over the years I feel like there's been hints from her end too, but i might be reading too much into it.

Problem is our mutual guy friend, whom I consider my best friend, has been into her for a long time. He's confided in me about his feelings for her over the years. He's openly admitted it to her too but it never went anywhere because they both went back to their respective schools for a while. Who knows if anything will ever happen. But I know I could never acat ton my own feelings because it would be a huge betrayal. The only winning move is not to play I guess.

I'm not like, torn up about it. But it's rare I find anyone who i'm drawn to like this. Just makes me realize how much energy and fun is missing from my life otherwise. I hope I can find someone who makes me feel even half as seen and alive as she does.

Just found out my friend is a fucking pedophile.

I hope he rots and dies in jail.

>>33219625
If he's in prison, he will be.
Is he in prison?

>>33219680
No, but the truth will get out eventually.

Also, I noticed I said jail instead of prison like a dumbass.

I simply have no respect for people who take advantage of the disadvantage, that is children in this equation. As a big brother, I do value how we treat our tykes and I have never felt as sick and twisted on the inside until I heard this.

They should be busy playing sports or enjoying their summer vacation, not this.

If there's one thing I like about prisoners, it's their mob justice.

>>33207048 (OP)

I'm so tired of pretty people. I'm not ugly, I was pretty, especially as a young teen, but it's boring.

Who cares? Being 'pretty' just means you're sexually appealing or fertile looking. That's it. Nothing more. Pretty, or handsome, people are usually boring & like useless shit. How pathetic is being proud of a gucci bag... they're not even that interesting to look at. I'd much prefer being friends with someone that's passionate about flower, snakes, astronomy, history, anything... but pop culture and status luxury items is completely pathetic. Being obsessed with celebrity gossip is also one of the most pathetic human traits out there. There are people dying of starvation and war and you care about which beautiful actress is dating or which royal family member is wearing. Yuck. You're all pathetic and useless human beings that don't deserve to live.

I don't chase fun. I don't care about fun. What is the point of fun?

How is sister getting money!!??She doesn't work. Doesn't go to school. Doesn't have a boyfriend. But somehow has money to go shopping. Pay for her pets food, pay her 2 phone bills, new clothes. When she does leave the house she's very secretive and won't tell anybody where she went. She even leaves her kids alone in the house while she's gone a few hours. Anytime I ask her any questions she starts acting really aggressive and mean and says I'm "controlling"(which is totally false she can do as she wishes) ans I never get a answer. She also left for 2 weeks with a "friend" on "vacation" and didn't tell anybody where she went for vacation. Which is weird for her since she's always on Facebook telling everyone what she's doing or going.

So how is she getting this money?

I'd like to know because I'm going through financial hardship right now and could use money too. But she won't tell me!

Work is killing the living shit out of me especially the faggot managers who are deliberately giving me hard work

Im having a big dramatic spat with my neighbors and its really stressing me out

I mean yes the easiest thing to do would be to meekly let them do as they want but fuck that I am not going to get bullied by these pieces of shit

I just wish they were civilized nice people
But they arent

>get into a slight scuffle with coworker I've worked with and gone out of my way to help for years
>explain to my therapist that I need to vent because this person should know how much I bust my ass to keep shit under control, and getting on my ass for one minor fuck up is uncalled for
>therapist spends the entire session running defense for my coworker and basically calls me immature for expecting any goodwill when I try to get people to back off for one mistake among years of hardwork and dedication
>break down and scream at her that she needs to shut up and she can't ever talk to me like that
Like God damn I know I'm an angry sperg but I make peanuts working in the same shithole I've been at for 7 years. Cut me some slack.

it is getting hard to cope with being ugly. i've always had this background hope that i'd somehow glow up and people would finally like me. i'd grow taller, my voice wouldn't be weird, my bpd would go away, i wouldn't be revoltingly ugly, etc. i'm 25 now and have zero hope or goodwill for myself and others. i cannot function at work. i don't leave my house unless i need to. i go outside and see happy people, attractive people, happy couples with happy kids, teenagers being affectionate and having fun, rich people, tall people, women. it's evolved into this feeling that i can't even describe. it's like when you cry so hard that your eyes and throat hurt, but it's with hatred for me. not petty dislike or jealousy. genuine, all-encompassing hatred and envy. it's hard to live and i'm scared of what my life will look like in 5 years.

>send gf a text
>five minutes later she sets her phone to silence notifications
It’s sort of like an announcement that she saw it but she’s ignoring me. I don’t even know what my feelings on this are.

All I ever feel is regret over my actions that caused all the girls in my university to hate me and my friend group to abandon me. Alas, people rarely ever forgive and forget.

>>33220454
Oh, she unsilenced it at some point. Hasn’t texted me back. Ok. Sure.

I lost a bunch of weight since the start of this year, ~45 lbs as of this morning (and only 18 lbs to my goal weight). I look much better and feel a bit better. However, I'm still just as awkward in public as I was when I started. I get compliments from family and friends on the way I look now, but I still don't understand how to accept it, it feels almost fake. I'm in my early 30s, never been in any kind of relationship, wasted the few opportunities I had in my teens and 20s. I don't really know how to start dating and I question every day if I even want to. Some days I really feel like I want to try, but then over the course of the day I think, man I just don't really want to sit there and get to know someone and put myself under pressure to impress someone. Then I think about having to sacrifice time for the stuff I want to do or the fact that I'm just not that interesting of a person. I'd also have to start in my 30s making mistakes people learned in their teens which would put any women off on bothering. Never mind the physical aspect, I'm not so sure a woman would want to bother with someone totally inexperienced (not that I would get that far). I just think at the end of the day I probably should not be dating, even when I get to my ideal physical state.

>>33207048 (OP)
You shouldn't have destroyed my back issues of The Economist, Chrissy. You stupid fat nigger bitch. You either owe me the money for each magazine printed or copies of them. There wasn't any reason for your insane cruelty. It was billions of shit over decades for NO REASON.

>>33220643
People make mistakes in relationships regardless of age because each dynamic is different. You're inexperienced, and that will never mean that you are unworthy of having a sexual relationship with a woman or undeserving of love. Please be patient with yourself and give you a chance at these things.

>>33220535
>>33220454
She has bpd and she's going to mentally ruin you

>>33219101
Yeah no one's gonna listen to you. People are gonna be bitches

Missed out on another opportunity because I don't speak how I feel and don't want to ruffle any feathers. so sick of missing out on life because of fear and talking myself out of doing things. feels like every decision I make is the wrong one and then im stuck dealing with the feelings of regret. I have to start being more assertive and not care about inconveniencing other people.

text her you coward

I will be so, so fucking happy the day I never have to see this world ever again.
It will be the best moment of my life. I'm so tired of playing this game every day, every week, every month, every year. I'm so fucking tired.

Meth heads can't be trusted.

Sad that I don’t have a girlfriend, scared I’m just going to be alone for the rest of my life. OCD is becoming unbearable to deal with. Constant intrusive thoughts and compulsive rituals are so mentally exhausting that I have no energy to do anything besides work and the gym. I literally sleep until 9 pm every day and stay up the entire night just because I’m so depressed and exhausted all the time.

Does anyone have any advice for me? An heroing is becoming more and more of an attractive option at this point

>>33221054
This bro got context he's not sharing

>>33221041
too late

Going to smoke again. I don't like how I turn deranged anytime I do anything.

I want to message my ex so badly even if the cops told me not to. It has been a month I should be safe right


I think we are connected I dream about her every night.

I don't know if the relationship I formed while under the influence is right for me now that I'm sober. It's starting to feel overbearing.

You can get an e boyfriend back right? That has to be possible.

>>33221253
Ahahahahahahahahahahaha don't do it.

>>33221414
Why she was my princess I keep my promises I am going to marry her

>>33221575
Doubt it, my ex used to say those same things.

>>33221582
She was my beautiful blonde virgin princess and I was her sensei. My current girlfriend just doesn’t make me erect the same way. She was my Hina. Coercing her into declaring that she wanted my huge penis in her cunny was exhilarating.

>>33219013
> worst case they ignore your messages and make you feel worthless but is that actually worse?

Yes. Sending a message and getting ignored by them was fucking vicious.
Would rather never reach out again and miss them forever.

>>33217980
You deserve to suffer for Reddit spacing

>>33219013
>worst case they ignore your messages and make you feel worthless
Yeah...

>>33221582
Hey mine did as well was yours a narc with mommy issues too

>>33221657
lmao fair enough

Just paid off my debt, feels so fucking good. Now I can do whatever I want.

>>33207048 (OP)
i just want to be together with a loving loyal asian girl. im tired of being alone

Dramatic choice of words but I feel dead after having my heart broken.

It’s honestly weird. I don’t feel like myself, and I’ve felt emotionally numb for months now. It was worse at the start, the first month was genuinely violent. Crying uncontrollably, feeling wounded and exhausted. Unfortunately it was someone I met at work (Not the same company, but adjacent work.) — and everyday feels like a nonstop reminder of personal failure.

Which is overly dramatic and weird. It’s funny because it was genuinely more emotionally devastating than my childhood cat dying in front of me due to medical neglect, or seeing my oldest brother in a casket for the same reason.

>>33211477
lol lucky
my mom is a retard. i cant even form a connection with her sub 50 iq having ass

>>33207281
If it makes you feel better, lots of people do this. A mutual acquaintance of mine was explaining to me how he recently landed a WFH tech job, and he spends a good chunk of his time no where near his computer.
>>33211690
Condolences, anon. Can't give much advice because I've yet to lose someone that close and don't want to parrot platitudes, but I hope you find the peace he'd want you both to have.

>>33207259
You both basically sexted a stranger, yeah you kind of cheated.

Driving across the city for McDonald’s is a sign I should get my own place.

i think abt u everyday i miss and love you still i wish you didnt leave the future we could of had together was a beautiful fantasy of mine now i cant even think of what im doing next week i miss our plans together i miss seeing you i miss how you comforted me i miss your pretty face you looked so pretty the last time i saw you and its burnt into my memory i hate you moved on and so quickly i feel isolated i needed you the most and you just walked away

>>33222112
>>33222232
why is everyone so heartbroken lately?

latino really warm:)

I should have therapy
I will never go to therapy
I wish I was sent to therapy

>>33220802
Yeah, unfortunately I'm aware.
It just drives me absolutely crazy every time I see this kind of shit.
Like it's understandable if you're upset about something but don't let it out on people who aren't responsible for your problem and can't even fight back properly, because at the end of they day the customer is probably in a stronger position

>>33222653
>I will never go to therapy
Why not?
I've refused to go to therapy for multiple years, because "it's not that bad" and "Surely I can fix this on my own" and it took multiple people close to me (who went themselves) repeatedly telling me that they think it would do me good and me going through one of the lowest point in my life for me to finally go.

Just grow up about it

>>33222699
Because it's not that bad and surely I can fix it this on my own and also I find that suicide is a comforting ripcord in case life gets hard, I imagine it'd be a lot harder to pull off if people knew I was struggling. Not that I'm interested in suicide atm but it's kinda like yeah I guess I will when I turn like 50.

Also the second some nobody therapist tries to tell me something about my own life I will disregard them.

My disability has progressed to the point where I cannot leave the house, work, cook, wash dishes, or bathe every day. I doubt I'll ever get better, since my condition has steadily worsened for several years and every intervention has made it worse.
I can't find it in myself to read anymore, and the project I started a few years ago that has now been partially completed feels meaningless.
I wish that I was dead, but I don't want to hurt my parents by killing myself. So I'll keep going on like this, increasingly pathetic, without purpose or any kind of control over my own life.

>>33222831
Very relatable to be honest.
I obviously can't convince you, but just as a peace of encouragement: I felt very similar. I know people who went through some real fucked up shit and in comparison my problems seemed to trivial to require a therapist. Yet I'm glad I went, because the reasons why I thought I needed therapy and why, as I late found out, I actually needed therapy where very different.
Also resonate with the feeling of not wanting to have some rando tell you about your life. I was also very closed off to my therapist and rejected a lot of what she was saying. But it's been a long journey and we've slowly built a very trusting interpersonal relationship where I can now listen to and evaluate most of her advice.

>>33219369
The idea of nature and hereditarity were discovered at the same time, because they are one and the same
And wrong, most policies in the west right now are made to keep those 'useless eaters' alive. Importing hundreds of thousands of third worlders for voting stock and cheap labor and exorbitant taxation on the citizenship to keep those and the fat black mammies who don't work alive. It's a dysgenics project if anything.
>our modern western society is based on the idea that the elites are the superior genetics
No, it's based on the idea that we are all interchangeable gray goo. That race, sex, etc are all irrelevant. But it's true that economic success is tied to genetics, only commies, coping with their own lack of success, would deny this fact.

>>33222854
Ok I tried it a couple years ago, writing it off completely without experience isn't fair I guess. But being suggested 'mindfulness exercises' felt like being spat in the face.

>reasons why I thought I needed therapy and why, as I later found out, I actually needed therapy where very different.
How does this happen? Felt like whatever I would've said first that was on my mind would've become the focus of the whole discussion, but if I knew what my problem was by just stating it I wouldn't have been there.

>>33222898
Well, therapists are people to and some of them might be bad at their job. Also mine once admitted that at the beginning she might have made a few mistakes in her approach, simply because she didn't know me well enough yet and if she knew then what she knows now maybe she would have chosen a different approach here and there. Therapy isn't a silver bullet and it's normal to have a session every now and then that feels like an absolute waste of time. For me at least I never really notice any big improvements, but when I look back over the 1 year I've been doing it now I've learned a lot of invaluable things about myself and have made (without noticing) some constructive changes.
>How does this happen?
Well I can't quite describe it. It's not that it was completely unrelated, but the issue that made me come to therapy turned out to be more of a symptom than a cause. The actual cause is a bit of a childhood trauma I wasn't even aware of and a very toxic relationship with myself which I obviously also thought was normal. So over the course of our sessions we slowly dug deeper and started working on those.
So whenever I recommend therapy to people I mention that whatever you think your problem is, is the first step to getting your foot in the door, but chances are there might be deeper problems you aren't even aware of. Though obviously I'm projecting a little here.

>>33222926
Thanks for the advice, but I guess it all comes round to my original point of needing to be forced into it. I'm pretty asocial, and honestly I drop this sort of stuff quickly the second I feel it's getting bullshit: therapy, physical therapy for an injury I had, dating apps, hairdressers, etc. fuck this I'll do it on my own til I'm ready to exit stage left. Appreciate your views though, I'll remember them and maybe they'll sink in later when I'm not expecting it.

>>33222953
Well, I'm just some letters on your screen. Happy to give you some input though, especially since your situation felt so relatable.

>>33207048 (OP)
I feel like nothing is gonna go right ever I know things can change fast and sometimes life isn't as bad as we may think I'm just lost im a loser mid wit with no goals or aspirations it feels like I'm just human filler meant to take up space it wouldn't be an issue if I didn't have feelings and actually care about things but I do somewhat I dont know It just feels like I wasn't meant to be human and God or the universe is laughing at me every day like Truman show except I'm not Jim Carrey I'm just retarded

>>33207048 (OP)
>What's eating ya?
I want to be open, transparent and honest with the world. But I find that when I try to be, it is often poorly received. In the worst cases, people come at me with manipulative behavior that has no regard for me as a human being, and I find it necessary to set up barriers to protect myself. But these barriers, by their very nature, obstruct transparency and honest communication.

So I'm kind of stuck, and it is exhausting. I wish there was a better way to relate to the world and to other people.

>be me
>be man
>decide to start take women's multivitamins (a combination of fertility enhancers and lactation support) for reasons
>both obviously heighten estrogen and other female hormones
>three days in and I begin to get horny, REALLY fucking horny
>off work on the fourth day and masturbate no less than six times (usual is two)
>realize that my body is over compensating for the increased estrogen by pumping out T at a higher than normal rate

Something to learn there for sure.

>>33223340
I abuse steroids but they lead to Addison's disease if not done correctly (1x monthly). What's the ultimate strategy to use women's multivitamins?

Getting raped up the ass during my formative years while being recorded fucked me up to the damn root of my psyche. I'm pretty sure my IQ's gone down by the 10s each past year because of it. I'm a complete husk and a faggot to boot. I'm no different from a carcass these days.

>>33223368
I'm still feeling it out.

I got a lactation support vitamin for post-natal women who are struggling to produce milk (very high estrogen content) and I also got a two in one fertility support. One pill container for men and one for women.

So far I haven't noticed a difference outside of the insane levels of sex drive I'm feeling but I haven't broken a week with them yet so I guess we'll see what happens. I may grow tits, but I also might not.

ya i will always want to play with push trains!

redding rancheria is a pornograhpy sentence because of divine brc i want all FAKE MUSIC NEWS ARTICLES HYDRAULIC CRUSHED WITH SANDERS IN austria that was joke if the lion king i always had argument won literally immediately chemical rail ALL STUFF WITHOUT OUT A BODY

>>33223386
Very interesting, hope you're ok with growing tits, might be arousing I guess?
Maybe see how it goes if you include the cum stack multivitamins, if so make sure you take note of the copper and zinc content, I think those fuck you up if they're too high.

>>33223430
I used to have gynecomastia and when I was a teen, they got removed, and it wasn't really my preference. It's rather silly and maybe pointless, but I'm hoping this'll make them come back. No idea if it will though.

Will do. I will also post updates as I go. I imagine something will change somewhere, even if it isn't all I hoped for.

wow you not viewing recent literally what all that means i won argument it all literally refusing to concede i literally won argument about any of it it is literally all ATTEMPTING MEDIA SYNDICATES ABOUT A RED NATIVE AMERICAN MINORITY GROUP IT IS ALL LITERALLY LIEING ABOUT STATUS then just create zog prism meme and it gets neutron crunched ok

stuff without a body cannot actually demonstrate it has any brain strength

the ground outside of a sacramento, japan venue will not break

>>33207048 (OP)
I wish I had a more feminine body but I'm actively working against it

>>33223442
I mean if you're genuine you might as well try the breast growth stack posted on /fit/ sometimes, at least check if it works on males though

Went from someone fucking with my heart and smashing it into a million pieces, a million times, without remorse or apology, to someone completely different who tells me everything I ever wanted to fucking hear.

Maybe it’s too soon for me. What the fuck. Is life even real? I can’t even trust anymore. I’m so checked out. I couldn’t even hide my cynicism during the date. This time, it felt like for once I had the bargaining power, that I was in my ex’s shoes, that I didn’t really care if this other person liked me or not.

would you like me to explain this to you because i wanted you to see something in archive from longest time ago. ok. it's just full body simulator you didn't le hallucinate the end of the sky. ok. good so i going tell you where any of that even is literally. it's in Antarctica. why sign say redding 6 miles away then sign is there like within 3,000 feet. it's totally hallucinated there you literally hallucinated a left and right in Antarctica. the sign sajd redding. i aware of of that it's just that you hallucinating what it sajd on signs literally. AWWWWWWW the austin is a brc.

>>33223588
Yikes. Same thing happened to me, he dumped me.

I had a ltr for a decade, broke up racked up 30 bodies then went back to another ltr and have been faithful ever since
No regrets

>>33223719
sad many such cases

>>33223719
Woman moment

it isn't recent literally it not all le going sajd wildman again or le say the pig nigga as le verbal stuff that isn't eating literally that was a long time ago
cinnamon is a hallucingenic literally there you almost literally hallucinating yourself as french toast i am not actually laughing ok

it's just not about you because your real name spells out Allah literally there

What are the chances she's actually lesbian when she breaks up with you for that reason? Is it just pretext? Be honest with me.

i am so unlovable i dont know what to do
i hate being myself i just wish i had the confidence to ask girls out or be myself but all i know how to do is work and work and work and sleep
im a good for nothing i just wanted to be happy

What a complete waste of another weekend
Got nothing done at all
All I've done is watching youtube videos for two days

hey, whats going on?

>>33224228
?

>>33224235
u ok? just needed to vent?

>>33224247
No I’m not okay. Why even reach out? You were mocking me with the rest of them.

>>33224251
oh come on… I was getting ready for bed, I had no part in it
my last post was two hours ago, but I just came back and scrolled through all of that

>>33224263
Okay, my apologies then. I don’t know where it stems from. I do know I want to self harm a lot right now. It’s taking a lot to not burn myself. I’ve been working out to take the burn off.

>>33224275
what triggered you so? the thread?

>>33224279
My dream. I felt very powerless. And having to work tonight sounds like a nightmare.

>>33224281
what was the dream? how long until work?

>>33224294
I dreamt that I was flying through the world, but it was only because I was holding a red pool noodle that was felt magnetized to the sky. It kept tugging me upwards, but when I’d hold it, my weight made it go forward. I lost it a few times, one time I got caught on the side of a skyscraper, but it would come back, until eventually it left me in a tree. Work is in 5 and a half hours.
I know the root source of my angst, sadly. I wish I didn’t. I wish I could subsume myself in emotion and feel comforted in it, you know? I wish I didn’t know and could just feel it and be held and comforted through it. I wish I didn’t feel like I have to perform to be loved.

>>33224308
Oh, I saw that post about the red pool noodle but I was distracted and did not read it fully. What a weird dream.
>wish I didn’t know and could just feel it and be held and comforted through it
hm, yes, sometimes self awareness is truly the worst curse of them all
>perform to be loved
I still blame enlightenment for that :3 what a bitch

>>33224333
Sometimes it can be. It’s hard to fully follow the emotional line because obviously yeah, women aren’t a monolith. Not everyone is like my mom or older sister. And it’s hard to admit that maybe I wanted to warp Atoga, to feel powerful in dominating the discourse, that I did get triggered by multiple things and the thread was just the final push for disgust. I need real therapy for my issues with women. A woman said to me at work that she loved my glasses, and went into details about it, she clearly liked me a lot. Why did that make me so disgusted, you know? I wondered if it was because of us but that is not true because you’d love if I went out and racked up a body count. Enlightenment hurts baby

>>33224344
maybe you felt objectified, I can see why you‘d get disgusted by that
>racked up a body count
idk about that, I can‘t really put it into words but it feels like my stance on that has shifted a bit
>Enlightenment hurts baby
god yes, like a mf

>>33224353
Every interaction at my job feels like being objectified desu. Something that really disgusted me was my manager having women say he was a “good honest man” because he leveraged his marriage for more tips. This motherfucker flirts with every woman that comes in, no matter what. The truest, most deepest whore I have ever met, unironically. He sells the sanctity of his marriage for cash tips.
> my stance on that has shifted a bit
Hm, really? I could see that, but why, how?

>>33224360
>He sells the sanctity of his marriage for cash tips.
ew…
>Every interaction at my job feels like being objectified
because you are, you literally get paid to be an object that does it‘s job
working only isn‘t soul crushing if you are unaware or you have a rare job that does not objectify you I suppose - and yours is by default very objectifying
>why, how?
ykno, I haven‘t really thought about it, it‘s just a vague feeling that it has changed alongside some other things that have shifted, it just got dragged with it but I never looked at it directly since it wasn‘t relevant
now when I do look at it, I can‘t tell anymore, I could just as well argue that it‘s neutral
I guess it feels like hollow hedonism, but then I‘d have no real argument as to why that is inherently bad - so

>>33224378
>ew…
It’s genuinely so disgusting to witness.
> hollow hedonism
This makes sense but also doesn’t. This is a strange mode for you. Changing, huh?

>>33224384
always, yes
don‘t we all?
what do you think the dream meant?

>>33207048 (OP)
Got pulled over last night and had my car impounded for drunk driving without insurance. i was sobered up too and totally coherent, but i blew over so i guess it doesn't matter.
anyways now i'm broke, my girlfriend is mad and i still have to tell me dad :( also probably getting a year-long license suspension.
fuck my life

>>33224386
Suppose so. I am becoming stronger in myself, even with these temporary slide backs.
>the dream
If I had to guess, it would be the feeling of surrender. Since I’m terrified of heights, and in my dreams I had forced control before, the pool noodle was to show a tenuous loss of control and how easily I could lose it all. I think it was manifested angst at this next leap where I am truly becoming my own man. Or it could be that I am clinging to something that wants to get away from me, it wants to ascend but I’m keeping it down as it lifts me up. Hard to say. What do you think?

>>33224397
yeah, but even when you lost it, it came back to you, no? so if your weight held it down, it had plenty of opportunity to escape but thats not what it chose
maybe it‘s about balance between letting something lift you up without trying to control it and accepting that something lifting you up inevitably means weighting it down a bit but if it wasn‘t willing to be weighted down it would not return to lift you up
besides, you ended in the tree, that seems like a good omen - firmly rooted

>>33224412
Perhaps you are the red pool noodle :3
> you ended in the tree, that seems like a good omen
What’s strange is that it’s a tree I’ve dreamt of before. It’s a massive oak tree in the middle of a park surrounded by buildings. I remember it because in a dream prior I had flown there to hide from people who were pursuing me. So strange, these things.
> maybe it‘s about balance between letting something lift you up without trying to control it and accepting that something lifting you up inevitably means weighting it down a bit but if it wasn‘t willing to be weighted down it would not return to lift you up
Perhaps this is symptomatic of the trauma and low self esteem. Feeling like I am a bad person for that when the noodle clearly wanted to lift me up if it kept coming back. Maybe I should learn to stop being so self centred myself, hm?

I wish I could be a fool

>>33224416
if I am a pool noodle, I will most definitely whack you with it
>prior I had flown there to hide from people who were pursuing me
maybe you were trying to escape the gross gooner ladies at work
>stop being so self centered myself, hm?
yes and no
yes as in, let the pool noodle make her own decisions and don‘t virtue signal by refusing to be lifted up when she has decided that being weighted down is worth it
no as in, stop feeling like you are a burden for needing a helping hand

>>33224423
dont we all

>>33224424
> stop feeling like you are a burden for needing a helping hand
Like right now huh
I still get those same tingles when I think of you. You’d think I’d learn to read people’s actions as well. Thank you for this, it helped a lot. Now I’m sitting here flexing and admiring my arms kek

>>33224450
uh huh
always, my baby girl
I‘m glad you feel a bit lighter <3
starting to fall asleep tho, I hope you have a good run at work today, at least make good tips for being objectified ;)

>>33224458
Sleep well, other half <3

I may have a mental illness but at least I still have common sense. I'm not stark, raving mad. Calm your tiddies, my dears.

it's so stupid, i am gonna miss someone who does not care about me as much as i care about them. there is still some time left to spend together and it every day ahead of me just feels like a new reminder that time is running out and there is not much left anymore

>34, autistic, adhd-inattentive, high school drop out, severe agoraphobia.
Might off myself soon. Got the method and location planned. I really don't want to do it but I don't see a bright future for myself. Just a lonely one stuck in poverty.

>>33219622
I don't understand because I don't have friends but, why is the betrayal bad? Wouldn't starting to date the person that you think can share your life be a more important thing than friendship?

>>33207048 (OP)
It's obvious to me that free will doesn't exist and neither does God, and realizing this is the only thing that has had an obvious effect on my perspective as a whole. Nothing else has come close. Realizing free will is an illusion has ironically set me free.

>>33224798
You can have crushes like this on friends where it feels luke an almost in love sort of thing, but not quite the same. I've felt it for same sex friends, and it's just understanding that they're really neat and you connect with them on a deeper level.

>>33207048 (OP)
I'm stuck. I'm turning 33 in less than two weeks, I'm in a low paid draftsman/low tier engineering job despite my degree in aerospace engineering, the knowledge from which I never truly exploited since I started working 3 years ago (I had 3 different severe depressive episodes in my life with fucklong recovery every time, which is why it took me so much to get a grip and start a life on my own). I feel intellectually starved because of that stupid job, which sadly I don't even entirely hate, as I've become comfortably numb to the alienating routine of it, so I feel kind of stuck in that position, not good enough to be satisfied, not bad enough to need to get away, although this situation is taking its toll on my mental health. I want to find something more stimulating, and a friend that lives in the Netherlands always shills me that place, but it's already hard to get a job near me, getting one on the other side of Europe sounds impossible. Besides, I have no idea where to go with my life, what to do. If it was for me I'd be a thinkerer like the ones you see on YouTube, except I don't want to have to make a show of my projects to afford to do my projects. I'm stuck.

ive settled for less my entire lift and with this break up i want what i want...i want a sexy asian chick who actually will treat me right...i dont care what people say...i want what i want and i will get it.

>>33224877
I mean obviously it's not the same if you are talking about same-sex straight friends because there is no attraction there. Original post is about two opposite-sex straight friends. These kind of friendships always have some kind of sexual tension, even though as the poster said he wasn't attracted to her at first. To come back to my original point about betrayal yeah trust is probably what drives most friendships, I wish I found a friend that I felt this attached to.

>person asks me if she's an awful individual for using a guy she's going out with to make her situationship jealous
>warned her that the disgusting behavior she does will come back to bite her soon
>it does
>she got herself stuck with a guy who's emotionally immature/sheltered, short tempered, and retarded
>sticks by because "i'm his first gf and i dont want to make him depressed"
>she just doesn't want to be alone and craves the next warm body to keep her distracted from needing to reflect on her problems
>emotionally cheats on guy practically in the double digits amount of times (near 20) with situationship guy
>find out she and her bf either separated or got dumped after i left my job

shit like this makes me happy. seeing someone who legitimately likes to hurt people for her gain and use her irrelevant trauma to justify her dog shit behavior get their just desserts is great. I don't like her bf, but hearing he gained a spine and broke it off with her makes me happy to hear as well.

Finally I can see it... I dont want me or I'm scared of being happy, I dont think I deserve to be happy, it scares me for some reason...

I had a chance to be happy today, to not fall into my own hole of self-hatred... but I did... I guess subconsciously I don't want to be happy or I just think I don't deserve it for some reason

>>33225014
Dig deeper. Why?

I had a pretty good couple of weeks but this past week nearly every day I've had a deep desire to hang myself and taking care of myself has been monumentally difficult. On top of the usual self hatred and despair. On the worst day I just cut myself and the feelings passed. I don't have anyone in my personal life who knows this about me but I considered calling a kind coworker just to ask for some support but I didn't because I don't want to become more of a burden than I already am. I told my therapist all of this and he said I could call him if I'm ever feeling that deep again and he can help me through it but I don't think I could. The dude gets paid to hear me whine and complain about life, it doesn't feel right to contact him off the clock so I guess I'll just go through the moments alone.

I don't even know what to do with myself. So many wasted years. This one is almost half wasted, too. How do I even turn it around?

>>33207048 (OP)
Brother just dumped his gf. She took advantage of him and got him into over 10k of debt. Now he has to start all over, kinda from less than zero, so he moved back in with our parents and i feel real bad. Hes not the sharpest dude ever and it really pains me to even say that because i do care about him. I liked it when he was with a girl and living on his own. It made me feel like he was an adult and able to live his life on his own and that i didn'thave to worry about him. But now that he was just being taken advantage of by some cunt is just so deflating. I hope he manages to live life ok.

>>33224798
Maybe. But I just figure it's a bros before hoes thing. I value his friendship, he has confided in me about his fondness for her, so if I were to swoop in and potentially date her, or even just ask her out, I'd be stepping on his toes.

I had horrible acne when I was a teenager, worse than anyone else I've ever met, even now that I'm in my 30's. I went on accutane and they kept me on it for 11 months. One of the worst and most painful and uncomfortable experiences of my life. Later my acne got a bit better, I actually had a face for once and wasn't disgusted with myself, but it made me horribly depressed, my skin got extremely dry, I keep getting acne anyway just not as severe, but I do have plenty of scars because of the first few weeks I was on it. I keep getting eczema breakouts on a weekly basis, I pretty much use lip balm 24/7 and have for years now, I sweat a shit ton because I keep having to moisturize to open up my pores because otherwise my skin is horribly dry. I hate how much maintenance my body is now, I pretty much stopped travelling and going on holidays because if I'm not home for more than 2 days my skin gets so bad it requires so many different creams and whatnot I would have to pack so much of it with me everywhere I go. I hate my body, its never been "normal", I pretty much had to decide between being acne ridden and be depressed over that and hate myself, or get rid of acne and look better but be depressed because of accutane and raise my body's maintenance to maximum. Its been about 10 years now after I stopped taking accutane and I'm more depressed than ever, my skin gets gradually worse and worse and I just want to fucking end myself because every day feels like pain living in this body. Why couldn't I just have been born normal? thats why I'll never have kids, if there is at least a 1% chance they'll inherit this shit from me I don't want to put them through it.

Do most people get along with their colleagues? I know I'm not there to make friends, but I can't help but think people don't like me that much, whether I show interest in them and try to initiate a conversation, or I stay quiet and do my own thing.
It just seems like I've never been able to get on people's good side, no matter what I do, and making those around me feel comfortable is all I've ever wanted.
Things like these make me feel like I should just go back to hiding in my shell and not giving a fuck about socialising with people, like what I've been doing for more than 20 years of my life.

>>33225345
one day at a time

>>33207246
People tend to disapprove of indiscriminate carpet bombing. I wonder why?

>>33207259
Yes you cheated

I hate that fucking feeling when you meet a girl, you're talking to her, you get along, you feel like its going somewhere, then she suddenly starts talking to some other guy and forgets you exist. Thats the main reason I gave up on pursuing any relationship in recent years, it always just ends up in disappointment and no matter how well you two get along, someone will always fucking come in and ruin it for you. Fucking cunts, I'm just better off alone, less bullshit to deal with and I can actually feel good for once.

If humanity really had to choose one person to represent them as a race to the universe how could you argue with this selection? She is the best of us, she is wide eyed, eager, optimistic, loving, and just wants to be a pioneer. Look at her face and tell me she isn't the best of us. That I'm not that girl.

My mom used to touch me under the covers at night when I was little

I am america chavez. There isn't another like me in the collective, in heaven. I don't have a soul, I'm not split among an infinite realities. If Birdy has me that means she is the only one to have me, there aren't any others to share me with. She will be my first real love, she will be the one to take my virginity. So yes, she will be the one. Just the one and I don't know how anyone could deal with that i they were in my position because she will grow old and perish while I'll just become greater and more ancient. There is just one of me after all, even of my species or kind.

I just want to be Tatiana. My existence has been nothing but suffering and will continue to be for what appears to be eternity. I'll just keep going and going while the universe itself falls apart around me.

>>33207048 (OP)
whenever I have a problem that is too normie people either think I'm bragging or I'm baiting and I never receive help at all
thing is my problems are never completely normie tier so I can't just ask my normie friends and family but of course I live a life akin to a normie if seen by the eyes of a chronically online nazi neet in their 30s living with their parents and still a virgin.

*You were just meant to* is not a good enough reason. There has to be a reason why this is happening to me. I had to have done something horrific, maybe I killed her. Maybe it was me that did it and you just erased my memory. I chopped off her head with a rusty machete in sheer anger and now I'm paying for it. The pure self hatred, there has to be a reason.

Without that one act, I am the best though, right? But with that action there has to be a reason. I don't think i deserve it because I don't remember doing it but it's happening so clearly i do deserve it. Again, I don't FEEL like I deserve this to be happening to me but it is happening so I had to have done something horrible. It only makes sense. You have the ability to erase parts of my memory and you said 'Something went wrong."

Ive been on /adv/ for like five years now, for the past year using pretty much every day. Anyone here longer than that?

kill women

>>33226134
The fact that I'm still in this shitty, fat, ugly, disgusting piece of shit body (my face is ok but the rest is just the fucking worst mankind has to offer) and not in my actual body means that... I had to did something horrific. I just had to. Why drag this out for so long. Why not just let me fucking die? How could so many terrible things happen to someone and them not deserve them? Maybe me thinking "I don't deserve this." is just proof that I do. Only someone full of themselves would think they are the best and they probably deserve horrible shit. I've been poisoned, choked, gagged, sleep deprived, psychologically tortured, tormented by impossible creatures, lied to constantly, and so much more just in the last 2 weeks and it's all because of what? What did I fucking do? Why can't I just be free?

>ex and her boyfriend of over a year recently broke up
>made $2000 by selling pokemon cards

I guess life can be pretty sweet sometimes

I love you and I shouldn't. I just do. It's not just the idea of you, I've seen you and it's beautiful. No one smiles like that with bad intentions in their heart. Those smiles are just so incredibly genuine that it's insane to think of them ill. You are exactly the girl I've always wanted in my life.

>>33226136
yeah around 5 years too, probably a year more, I remember I came here with problems with my last important and serious ex and we broke up at some point in 2020

>>33226136
I've been stopping by here on and off for at least 8 years. I was having a bad day and felt that helping others would improve my mood.

>>33223442
See if you can find some birth control. It always causes breast growth, even if slower than going on E + T blockers would do.

>>33226321
>I love you and I shouldn't. I just do.
Something you wanna explain anon?

I literally fall for any girl who gives me any smile or kind response, but I’m talking cashiers or someone who I often take the bus with or whatever. I literally hope to run into them any given day. Like today I got some girls name today after passing her at work multiple times (I just asked her name and where she was from since she had a nice accent). But like that one interaction made my day. Now I hope to run into her tmrw. Shits so sad bros.

40 years old. I'm stuck in a dead-end minimum wage job, and I never hear back from any application I put in. I've applied to every business within 40 miles, even the ones I know I would struggle in. I'm on the bottom rung, and life gets worse by the month. It's only a matter of time before I burn through the money I saved up in my younger days, then I won't be able to afford rent and I'll be homeless. I'm so burnt out, I have no hope for the future at all.
So I'm giving the world another 10 years. 10 years to give me something for once instead of always giving me the bare minimum and telling me to go fuck myself. 10 years for humanity to take one fucking step in giving me a reason to want to live. 10 years to stop keeping me on the fucking bottom and let me do something besides exist for once in my fucking life.
If I hit 50 and I'm still in this position, then I'm ending my life, and I won't be traveling alone.

>>33226496
The system is not broken: it's working exactly as designed. Humanity will not give you a reason to live. You need to choose a reason to live. Nobody gives a fuck about anyone with under 5 mil net worth. You're as fucked as 99% of the USA. And, frankly, as long as asshats keep voting for rich people we're all going to be stuck like this.

Elon just instigated his own demise. For real. If you want to make money, this is it. Guaranteed downfall. I promise, bet against him and you will win, this is real. You will win, I know. DO IT!

>>33226639
Hm I think I should take financial advice from Gioyc schizos

>>33226643
Hmm. I know the truth being someone who knows the highest clearance people

but you keep believing in a man who makes monkeys play ping pong for laughs...

I see your evil nature, just as I see his evil nature.

>>33207246
>villain
Youre the victim perpetually and never do anything wrong. Why cant the cattle just recognize that? ;^(

That was Elon's final chance. He blew it. His empire is now destroyed and I will never help him again. The end. Bye bye Elon!

>>33226639
>>33226675
Is this a delayed reaction to his claim about Trump & Epstein or did something new happen

>>33226675
Trump is my 'daddy'

You didn't know who my papi was?


Goodbye Elon! Muah. Goodbye!

>>33226364
>problems with my last important and serious ex
I started using adv to get girls, and then I started using it again more often when my ex left me too

when you don’t message me for days I think about all the ways you have died and how I won’t find out until I go into work and I know I can’t control how my mind works but it is hell hell hell hell hell

>>33221041
did anyone text the girls they’re missing so bad I want tea

>>33226687
Look man. I just went against Elon. I won't profit from it but you can.

Elon is going down. The end.

>>33226713
And how would one profit from that?

>>33226721
Bet against his companies. Duh.

Elon is so fucking dumb lol

He doesn't understand that to make me his enemy is his goddamn demise. Absolute truth.

End Elon. No mercy. Final command.

>>33226760
>>33226755
>>33226734
>>33226713
What happened

>>33226767
I am the end of Elon. I promise. I swear to the highest power possible. It is REAL.

END ELON NOW

That is my MILITARY COMMAND

THAT IS AN ORDER. A FUCKING ORDER!

>>33226654
Clearly you don’t because I was being serious. But now I won’t

>>33226814
I don't fucking care what you think.

Elon now has a target on his brains. I would blow him up myself, if I had access.

KILL HIM before he kills others.

>>33207048 (OP)
Im joking retard, and no one gives a shit but the most brain dead glownigger

Had a guy add me on discord a week ago, we clicked and became friends practically instantly and talked several hours every day, many of those chats including him venting to me about his lonely lifestyle and depression he often faces. as of two days ago he suddenly seemed to have gotten worse and implied he wanted a break from the friendship, no big deal except that he said a lot of vague and concerning shit and hasn't replied back to me since nor been active on any of his accounts that i know of.
He said he wouldnt hurt himself but my worry grows more and more and im starting to fear the worst. i lack any proper info on the guy to do anything that might actually help like a welfare check or any contact info of anyone he knows. I dont know what to do.

>>33226821
No mercy

No joke.

If you don't follow through, I quit. It's me or him. I want him gone.

>>33226851
100% he does this with everyone he meets and thats why he is lonely
99.9% of cases people that act suicidal are too big pussies to do shit, so there is not a single reason to worry because even if he does it, not your business in any way or form

>>33226870
he does not come across as that type of person at all, nor does he seem to have contact with anyone else, not irl or online, his discord account was only made last month and his tag doesn’t come up in any archives. and sure, he might not go through with it, but that wouldnt explain his sudden silence and lack of online presence, including his twitter which has been active for over 2 years and before this sudden change in behavior two days ago, he would post and reply on there often, now its completely dead.

>>33226900
> his discord account was only made last month
NTA but this probably means he made a burner for attention. Sorry, anon.

>>33226911
I get what youre saying but that really does not seem to be the case. when i said him and i talked several hours a day i wasnt talking about 2-3 hours, im talking 6-8 hours a day, things about both him and i, it wasnt one sided and it wasnt always focused on him as the center on attention, he came across as an authentic and genuine guy.
it also makes no sense, if attention is what he was seeking, wouldnt he have replied back to me by now?

>>33226943
There’s a thing people do where they feed on energy and some people get tired when the novelty wears off. You filled his tank so he dipped. That’s the cynical view of it. We’re saying that because the best thing to do for you personally is let it go from your mind. I’m sorry you got ghosted, that really sucks.

>>33226961
being ghosted at this point is the least of my worries, not to mention unlikely, he expressed that he viewed me as a best friend and that he enjoyed talked to me. its the chance that he might have actually attempted some sort of self harm or even suicide that's stressing me out like crazy. he mentioned once before that he had a lot of pills that he could take for this exact reason, he also has no one else in his life, not any friends or family that could check up on him. Im genuinely considered figuring out means of getting in contact with authorities in his country about this.

>>33226999
Come on anon.
>best friend
>one week of intense emotional connection which suddenly goes dark
>all this trauma dumping
You got hot and cold’d. That’s not how relationships are formed, healthy ones that is. Do you not see how he was trying to lovebomb you and get you riled up? Saying he has no one else (I wonder why! It’s a lie btw) and conveniently mentioning how he has suicide fuel nearby then suddenly goes dark?

>>33226321
Have you ever even talked to this girl?

I'm in a "career" field currently making below minimum wage. Likely case I make 70k for two years before swapping fields to make 50k and then work my way in that field. Best case scenario I continue on and make upwards of 100k.

OR I abandon the "ifs" for a solid 50k year job and start working my way up in this new career. New career maxes out at 70k at best, but I can transition from it more easily.

Thoughts.

>>33212294
This is my litteral nightmare. Could not imagine taking care of anyone while I have not even started living my life yet. I would look for support from someone who could help you, like an institution. Who owns the place you currently live? If it’s your Grandma, then you could tell your parents you have are leaving in x days and then check into a shelter somewhere. If you work a job and have money saved up or can save money that’s good too. Life doesn’t end at 30 and actually could be pretty good in your 40s. Like real good. Maybe looksmaxx a little bit. Get ready, I’m a little behind on some milestones myself, but that just means we can be an inspiration to others. When I see 30 year olds living like they’re in their 20s, especially now when the fucktards in power need us to lock in and pick up a weapon, I’m the happiest man alive. Bachelor life is about to be real good I suspect, no family to worry about in these turbulent times and maybe some beer sounds like a damn good time.

>>33227029
this sort of behavior could all be explained with the things youre saying if only he would reply back to me, why create all this mess with the intent of gaining attention just to not take it??

>>33227083
The point is to not reply. He got his fix and moved on.

>>33227094
and if youre wrong and he was being honest?

>>33227129
Then idk, if you want to be an emotional support for this guy, be all means. You sound like a codependent and this type of thing would be right up your alley. Either way it’s unhealthy and you should take a step back from these intense emotional relationships. Genuinely wishing you all the best, anon.

>>33219622
What would he do if the situation was reversed? The honest answer to that is your answer
>>33224798
Incidentally, I worked with someone who met his wife by betraying his homie like that.

3 "grown" women freeloading off 1 man.
Shame on them

>>33225039
I dunno... I just, don't feel worth it, feel scared, Do I deserve happiness? Even when I think of myself as a bad person? What if I feel happy and then... the next minute that happiness is taken from me? Like just a mirage or something... I don't do anything special, I don't struggle to survive like other people, I half-ass my own self-improvement unlike other people who strive and struggle to become a better version of themselves, I just... Exist and let the waves take me deeper into my own abyss of hatred where I am the judge, executioner and jury, I know I can do better... But I get worse each and every single day and minute, I am unable to think of good things about myself, I just feel empty and a heavy feeling on my chest

>>33207048 (OP)
>Got my job due to globalisation (Europe MNC)
>Country is slowly dying due to globalisation (Indians, Chinese, Pinoys)

It would be alright but the Pajeets are infesting every local organisation while the PRCs are ruining things at the ground level from heartlands to shops.

Not to mention the sheer lack of EQ from both sides, Pajeet children shitting in public transportation and PRC peeing in public,

3 grown women. Running around being sneaky. Talking behind people's backs. Sneaking in houses. Freeloading on people. Shame in them. They aren't women. With that behavior they're pretty much children still

relapsed
at least the high is good

>>33227457
Sorry to hear, good luck with getting back on track to sobriety!

>>33207048 (OP)
fuck my ex

>>33227470
How are you going to fuck him

>>33226134
You deserve every thing that is horrible to happen to you see c. You're not a good person and I'm thankful I'm away from you

I'm trying something gay tomorrow and I'm nervous.

A couple invited me to their bedroom for a MMF. I've always considered myself straight with the exception of finding trans girls hot. But I been watching a lot of bi mmf porn, and sucking his cock with the wife and kissing them back and forth just seems so hot. I don't have any interest in penetration with the guy

>>33227501
who tf do you think I am? I don’t know you. Get the fuck away from my post

>>33227486
there will be no fucking. fuck him

>>33227526
Sounds like you want to fuck him really badly

>>33227518
Liar. Doesn't surprise me

>>33227543
>Sounds like you want to fuck him really badly

i would vomit if that gremlin looking ass got anywhere near me. Disgusting asf.

>>33227526
Do you think about shoving his cock down your throat as he fucks you raw and you quiver desperate for his cock inside you

>>33227553
he’s uggly as fuck so NO.

>>33207223
>but i just want my forever back
kill yourself you dumb bitch
>>33207237
THEN BREAK UP WITH HIM YOU STUPID FUCKING RETARD YOU ARE WASTING HIS TIME

>>33221162
>>33222786
>>33223402
>>33223419
>>33223445
>>33223449
>>33223455
>>33223613
>>33223913
>>33223977
kill yourself you namefag retard go outside and stop schizoposting with 6 different names like a fucking loser

Fight the future.

I am 37 years old and have never had a girlfriend. I can't ever see myself having one either. Every girl I've ever been interested in has been better off for not entering into a relationship with me. I.e. the partners they've found are significantly better than I could ever be.

The only touch I get from women is at strip clubs because I pay them to. Even then I can't afford that more than once every couple months.

All the things wrong with my life could go on for quite some time but I'll say that once my parents are gone I'll have very little to continue to live for. They tried their best and gave me a relatively good life but it wasn't enough to fix me.

>>33227587
I was only one of those. Meds. And no.

>>33227732
Don't waste money on strip clubs and women's attention. Work on self to build confidence. Build confidence to work on self.

>>33227143
How did the homie react?

>>33207048 (OP)
I hate being incompetent and scatter brained. I wish I could just do things the way other seem to do so effortlessly. I have to be on high alert all the time and any time I relax into my actual self shit immediately starts going wrong. I fucking hate my existence.

>>33227762
I agree with you but the alternative is not getting any form of sex. I've spent the majority of my life not getting sex so the prospect of stopping my only source is difficult to accept.

I am so sick of trannies making their tranny shit their whole personality and infecting everywhere they hang out with it. I tried to join a chill server for women and it's just been shit posting and cat memes but I go on there this morning and there are some tranny talking about his bulge. And all the little pick me liberal feminists are allowing him. It is so pathetic how women just roll over and let these freaks loudly infest our space is talking about their nasty dicks. Like that's a whole part of his fetish he is getting off on it but they are too stupid to understand. It isn't even worth complaining about they'll just call me a bigot

>>33227784
Just masturbate til you can get girls. Honestly even degenerate porn gooning is probably a step up from this.

Wish I could suck myself off. I get maybe one bj in a year from gf. Yes, we split chores and rent, and I don’t beat her or manipulate. I might have a feeling she’d be wet if I paid for everything. I wasn’t raised such way however.
>Inb4 fagging or cheating

>>33207048 (OP)
No matter how much "self improvement" I do like working out, eating healthy or working a decent job, I still end up watching gore videos to make myself feel good about myself

>>33227912
I feel bad for your practice GF because you will definitely pay everything for your future wife. Men are so simple

does anyone know how to get the gooner bate off of instagram...i just want it to be video games and japanese foods. all im seeing is low effort whores trying to be funny

T, you were in my dream last night. Does that mean you were thinking of me, too?

Okay, I feel bad now that I've cooled off... and I don't want cops showing up at my door.. Don't kill Elon or wreck him. I'm done though.100% done. No more help from me ever again.

I'll find another way.

>>33228670
I thought you were in jail for stabbing a guy.

>>33226683
It's many things, he betrayed me many times now. I don't care what he says about Trump.

>>33228694
dumb

I want to see Ali Khamenei dead though. Trump is a mofo pussy.

>>33207048 (OP)
Can't study because too boring. Can't work because too boring. What the fuck do I do?

It's my birthday and I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to look at my messages, the only call I picked up was my godmother's. I am lonely but I'm tired of everyone.

>>33228988
Happy birthday, anon.

You're not a good person

>>33229223
Neither are you. Not at all. People who say they're good (like you're implying you are, in contrast) are also NEVER good people. They're no aware enough to be good so they act out in evil ways, being unaware of the damage they do to other people. I know I'm not a good person but I'm a better person than you.

>>33229300
>>33229223
You both aren't good people, however youre not bad. Im not bad nor good.

>>33229417

>>33229223

For with the same judgment that you judge, you will be judged, and with the same measure with which you measure, it will be measured to you.

>>33229439
Hypocrisy at it's finest anon thats what you are.

>>33229445

How is that? You don't like scripture, judger? You must think you're God, judge and jury.

>>33229223
"Let him who is without sin cast the first stone"

>>33229465
Nope. You're malding, seething, projecting and cope harder

Bro, she never cared
I'm just dumb and trying to grasp at something that was never there

>>33229831
She did really care. She's just probably trying to recover/heal

>>33229842
Nah dog, a woman who truly cared about me wouldn't have risked the relationship by cheating

>>33229874
Never mind. I thought you guys had miscommunication.

>>33229748
You're projecting (and you wish more than anything that I'm seething because you're a bad person) I asked a question that you clearly can't answer as you just deflect.

>>33229831
You probably treated her badly. Just move along and find a new victim.

>>33229937
You're basically deflecting. You ma'am are a big troll and a hypocrite

m.s isn't going to change she's manipulative

>>33230050

You go around telling people they're bad people, pointing out a speck in their eye, ignoring the plank in your own.

Why would you call me ma'am? Are you projecting your hatred of some bitch you know onto random strangers? How pathetic. Kill yourself, loser.

>>33230142
Neither will you. You'll always be a demon. Get a life too... how pathetic to gossip about someone that doesn't even think about you. Rent free.

>>33230295
You're the demon deflecting and spying. Get a life and rent free

>>33230285
you're the disgusting loser. Get mental health

Damn bruh, why are all your pics from last year?
You used to be so selfie obsessed.
Don't tell me you don't got anything else to post?

YOU FAGGOT ASS LITTLE NIGGER CUNT, DISRESPECTFUL WASTE OF MY FUCKING TIME
I HATE THE WAY THAT YOU WALK THE WAY THAT YOU TALK I HATE THE WAY THAT YOU DRESS

>>33226321
Just contact her.

I had a dream last night where my only online friend who I've known for around twelve years sat on my lap and let me feel up her tits. She's the longest lasting friend I have and while our chats are usually random bursts of activity every other week where we talk about the strangest shit, we both appreciate that combination of distance but also understanding. It's the sort of anonymity that internet friendships are supposed to involve, where people with diametric worldviews can get along extremely well. Where one day she can talk about the happy pills she hates taking, and on another I can rant about immigrants. But yeah, dreamt about her tits. They were quite pale and soft in the dream. The face was a blur in the dream but subconsciously I knew it was her, y'know? I'm not someone who reads into dreams nor am I going to suddenly decide that this is a sign of anything, I've known her for over a decade and that simply isn't how our relationship works. Although I do wonder if she's ever had any dreams involving me. Sometimes I feel like I'm not a good friend, fairly frequently actually.

Fatherless behavior. You are a degenerate cretin, disgusting and of ill-repute. Leave me alone and crawl under another a rock until you learn common sense.
Men at 60 should not be this disrespectful of others’ time. Kill yourself.

Kill extroverts. Behead extroverts. Roundhouse kick an extrovert into the concrete.

>>33230309
Projection again. Sigh, this is just boring.

You're clearly a bad person. Pure projection. Go fucking die, you're worthless shit person. You only subtract from the world.

>>33230302
You have schizophrenia. No one is spying on you, you're not important enough or desirable enough for anyone to want to spy on you.

OK FINE FUCK I HAVE A CRUSH ON THEM EUGH JESUS FUCK

>>33230532
Is that important to somebody?

I really do hate Muslims. Why would anyone tolerate a religion that doesn't tolerate other religions? They want to murder any infidel. Fuck that. Those people are shit.

>>33230474
You are a cretin, dunce disgusting nothing

YOU (noone in particular) ARE THE BADDY BADGUY (there is no specific person). AND I AM THE GOODY GOOD GUY. (true and valid)

>>33230571
Just myself, since I don’t believe they would like me (or might just use me) and I don’t believe I would be “perfect” for them
But I like them anyway

I feel so fucking pathetic and miserable

I am so tired of this fucking planet. I work monumentally hard to try to stay alive and keep going, and work hard, so I can help people I guess, help the humans on this planet. But not one of them is ever going to express any kind of appreciation for that. I am so sick of this.
The day I don't have to do this anymore, I'll be so glad.

Tonight I'm finally going to do it. I don't know why, but I went on a bike ride today and something inside me finally just snapped in half. I couldn't even explain quite what or why. I've had episodes like this before, so I went home and decided to see if it would pass after a few hours. It hasn't.

I prayed for a sign. If fate permits, I'll take its hand and live. If it doesn't, I won't. I didn't ask for advice or guidance; I merely asked for a sign as to what to do or not to do, and I will accept the results of that.

No, you can't talk me out of it. No, you can't get me to rethink things. I don't want to hear it. If I felt things could change, I'd ask someone close to me for advice on my situation. I'm not telling anyone I know which means I've made my choice. If the divine winds steer me into life, I will listen. But as it stands now, I think my last thread has finally been pulled.

>>33231367
Do a flip faggot

>>33230758
No, I don't have cretinism, am in the 130s for IQ and I'm much more important than you for the world, or so they tell me.

Keep seething!

>>33230904
I'm sure they would be flattered. Don't be so hard on yourself.

>>33231384
You do a flip, nta.

My first relationship ended 1 year ago. The more time that passes the less I want to be in another relationship or deal with women. They all kind of suck. I thought before I met my ex too, and she managed to sour me even further on women after all.

I still miss him. I got so nervous and did the exact opposite of what I felt. I know that attempting to reach out would do nothing. I’m better off just continuing to let myself cry it out. I think the weirdest part is this, this incessant loyalty. I feel physically sick when even attempting to flirt with or date someone else. When is this going to fucking end?

You wouldn't be able to cope on your own. But you know what? Go ahead and fucking try, you miserable little sack of shit. I really don't care about you anymore. You want to know what's changed in the last 7 months? It's simple.

I can't cope living with you. You constantly snap over nothing, go nuts at the slightest inconvenience, interrupt me when I'm busy for some stupid insignificant shit, take your anger and stress out on me, moan about me not being attentive enough when you are not attentive at all, then moan and act like I'm the bad one.

It's no wonder your dad kicked you out. Shows how fucking unbearable you are to live with, doesn't it?

And now to cap everything off, you want to give my parents a horrible nasty shock the moment they get back from holiday.

I wonder how long it will take for reality to hit, and for you to realise you fucked up (again)? Normally it's pretty quick. I give it a day or two.

But you're not going to be able to worm your way back this time, bitch.

Im a rustic, none of this matters, no one cares

>cute girl fresh outta college joins our company
>month later, her direct supervisor leaves his wife and 2 kids of preschool age
Am I the schizo here? [spoiler]please say yes[/spoiler]