As a teenager, I wrote music with disgusting lyrics for shock value to fit the genre's aesthetic. I didn't consider the impact on others or how it would shape how others see me. I doubt an explanation would change people's minds, especially at a time when many can't differentiate between fiction and reality, or art and the artist. It doesn't help that I feel immense shame and guilt for those songs. They sounded terrible, and I'm not proud of them, both composition wise and lyrics wise. I wouldn't write songs like that nowadays because I want to compose music in a completely different genre. I want to make music again because it's one of the things I love most. However, I still live with the fear of being exposed for the stupid things I did, and I can't let go of my past. I can't forget that those songs were horrible and poorly written. I end up being paranoid for hours, constantly tormenting myself instead of improving my craft. How can I let go of my past and stop being so paranoid?

>>33378299 (OP)
Unless you were actually famous I doubt that anyone knows, cares or remembers. It took years for Joji to be "exposed" as Filthy Frank even though it was an open secret and most of his new fans probably didn't give a shit since they were there for his new music not a couple of tracks he released for an unrelated YouTube channel.

>>33378299 (OP)
Nobody cares enough about your songwriting to remember what you were doing as a teenager, let alone give a fuck about it. Just publish your new music under a different band or pseudonym if the stuff you're embarrassed about comes up under your real name.

>>33378299 (OP)
I won't read yet another daunting wall of text that starts in prehistory and you know you're in for an interminable saga before maybe, just maybe it finally asks for advice (or not).

>>33378299 (OP)
Good

>>33378299 (OP)
lol kill yourself weepy moralfaggot.

>>33378299 (OP)