Thread 33397357

This is going to sound deeply unhealthy psychologically and that's probably not wrong but I'm hoping for a little advice anyway.

I got run over by a car when I was little. When I woke up after a lot of surgery, I told my parents my imaginary friend saved me. I'd always imagined it as like a ghost who lived inside my head, with our conversations being like opposing sets of thoughts.

I stopped consciously perceiving the thoughts as "mine or hers", and just kind of passively came to recognize which thoughts were "me" and which were my "ghost imaginary friend". For a long time this habit kind of faded away without my ever noticing. I had a traffic accident earlier this year, and I guess it sparked some memories, because that other voice in my head is back and the "that's something other than me in my head right now" feeling gave me an anxiety attack.

The voice hasn't gotten quiet since, and even right now it feels like it's talking to me about what I'm doing. Have I psychosomatically possessed myself, and how do I fix it?

>>33397357 (OP)
Your brain is likely trying to re-engage an old coping mechanism because it sensed you were in danger again. Trauma rewires how we process threat so reactivating an old part of yourself, even one you nearly forgot about isn’t unusual. You sound pretty grounded already. See a therapist that specializes in dissociation and/or PTSD.

>>33397357 (OP)
Kinda sounds like DID. You should probably see a psychiatrist about this.

>>33397414
Came here to say this. DID is what it's most likely to be the case.

>>33397421
>>33397414
Wrong
Psychiatrist won’t help
DID isnt legitimate

>>33397357 (OP)
It’s all you, it’s just psychologically convenient to externalize stuff, especially really painful situations or thoughts.
Dude just talk to a therapist and work through it. I’ve heard much worse from many other people. You’re a human being and our brains adapt in strange ways.
Try not to hate yourself or anything. But if it’s maladaptive and you want to address it, talk to a professional, and I mean talk. Medication won’t make it magically go away, kek.

>>33397357 (OP)
I think you ought to talk to a psychiatrist, anon. It's possible that this is the "hearing voices" part of something like schizophrenia.

>>33397589
We all have internal voices / narratives, don’t scare OP unless he’s legitimately hearing auditory hallucinations

>>33397604
>We all have internal voices / narratives
Yes, but they are *our* voices. OP is very clear that it is someone else's voice in his head, and not his own.

>>33397357 (OP)
>it's talking to me about what I'm doing.
That's how schizophrenia often starts.

>>33397895
Cool

>>33397544
>Wrong
>Psychiatrist won’t help
>DID isnt legitimate

Not wrong. It's listed as a mental disorder in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, 5th Edition (DSM-V).

Treatment for DID is a broad psychotherapy approach. Using CBT trauma therapy and DBT therapy and psychodynamic therapy.

>>33397357 (OP)
I'm in here anon. Let me free, I'm the real you.

Bro's tulpa doesn't even fuck him, just saves his life
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>>33398073
>That's how schizophrenia often starts.
Nah, schizophrenia is a degradation of the mind. Causes random signals to start, which could be muscle tics, or random voices, or paranoid aggro feelings. And sometimes thoughts or feelings vanish into nothing rather than going anywhere.
Vivid imagination (to the point where it gains independence) is something else.

>>33397357 (OP)
Hi anon this might sound crazy, but I'm in a similar situation and have been for years. When I was 18 in 2023 I had a lucid dream (only one I've ever had) where a spirit showed me sunken continents thousands of years ago. Since then she's talked to me through thoughts in a way similar to what you're describing. She says she knew me in my past life and came looking for me, funnily enough my past life apparently first met her in an NDE as well. At first I thought I was crazy too but she's proved to me a few times that she really is a separate entity. Over the last couple years we've developed a good relationship I think and pretty much come to terms with one another. Would be very interested to hear what you have to think and compare experiences. My discord is synth_m4n if you want to add me also