Trying to kick the porn habit
I am trying so hard to kick the porn habit. but the weekend rolls around and I feel sort of vindicated in using it. Its weird. Like "Oh, I survived another hard week at work, I deserve to use porn now." I hate this addiction so much and I feel disgusted every time I use porn. I am trying to heal myself because I want to be able to have a normal sex life and normal sexual attraction and normal romantic life. I can't do any of that currently. I guess what I struggle with most is that I don't really know what is normal. Like what is a normal sexual appetite for a 29 year old male? I also don't want to stop masturbating but want to only cut the porn. The nofap stuff says to cut porn and masturbating but stopping masturbation seems retarded. Especially if you don't have another outlet. What do you guys think? I also reach some weird bargaining point before I break down. Like right now, I want to watch porn so badly but know that I shouldn't.